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Lost count.. *Possibly triggering*
I've not self harmed in over two years. I stopped counting how many days a long long time ago. I started cutting when I was 11 and finally stopped when I was about 17. It wasn't easy. There were times when I was close to dying. I didn't think there was a future. One of the ways I got through it was by telling myself that 'slipping' up wasn't failing. I HAD to go backwards once in a while to know how far I had come. If I had classed it as failing I would probably have made it a whole lot harder on myself.
I've built so much for myself in the past two years. Things I didn't think could ever happen to me, I'm going to have a dream career and I have a fantastic boyfriend who I will be moving away with later this year.
I know it seems impossible... And I know alot of people going through self harm will absolutely hate the whole "It can get better" crap but it is true in a way. Theres no real way for someone to tell you to get better (that used to make me so angry!) But it can happen.
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