I know how you feel, wanting to cut really badly. I'm having the same urge but I made a promise to someone.
Then she threatened to end our friendship if I cut again and broke the promise. She doesn't really understand the reasons behind cutting myself and I've thought about just doing it anyway and telling her that I can't be friends with someone who doesn't understand and support me no matter what I do.
Just fight the urge as much as you can; I'm fighting really hard because I'm so close to 8 months.
You're not weak sweetheart. You're struggling - and there is a big BIG difference between the two.
I'm sorry your mum reacted in that way. I think sometimes when people don't understand something, or have any knowledge of it, they tend to do what they think is right - but the truth is, it can often make things worse, because it makes us feel worse about ourselves. That feeling that we are useless and no one can understand.
It's not a true though, we aren't useless and there are people out there who DO understand.
Perhaps showing your mum some leaflets on SH so that she is more aware about it might help, or trying to tell her how it makes you feel when she does certain things? I don't think that anybody can TRULY understand what it's like unless they have been through it - but I think people can try.
I'm really sorry things are so tough right now.
Take care of yourself hunni. You are so not weak, and you deserve to feel better than this. xxxxxxx
-“And the day came when the risk it took to remain tight inside the bud was more painful than the risk it took to bloom.” Anais Nin-
Allie, Mutt, Great Grandma, Hope and Humbug. I love you and miss you all. xx
You're not weak sweetheart. You're struggling - and there is a big BIG difference between the two.
^^Alone and Scared is right about this, when life is as hard as yours sounds at the moment hanging on even for a few minutes is impressive. I'm so sorry your mother doesn't even seem to be trying to understand. I don't have any advice beyond what's already been said about writing a letter or giving her some information or something. I really hope things get better soon.
Take care of yourself, XXX
One day I'll learn to let things go........just not today
We may all be damaged and broken but that doesn't mean we're all alone.
(Altered from The Unblemished by Conrad Williams)
i'm sorry about that. but don't let your mom get you down. i know exactly how you feel though b/c when my mom first found out about my SI, she (and my grandma) made me promise that i'd never do it again. naturally, i agreed, but knew full well that i could not keep that sort of promise. no one can make you just stop like that. it needs to be you who makes the decision to stop. recovery is a process...it takes time. i hope you're feeling better and best of luck! let me know if you ever need anything! =]
Thanks ^^, She'll probably forget about it in a weeks time or something..
But I think Im gonna go see our health visitor(at school) tomorrow and talk to her, because I've been more down the last 2 months than ive been in ages, and today was just horrible. Im usually a pretty talkative person, but I wasnt able to speak or do anything at school, I just stared into the air all day almost. I could call my psychiatrist, but I dont like talking to her so...
My mom reacted EXACTLY the same way. She fricking thinks I belong at spring harbor! (Maine state adolecent mental institution) I it. I dont know what to do! (Sorry tht didnt help much)
Hah, ye, my mum keeps mentioning sending to me to this mental institution nearby here too :P
I'm ok today. Like, im not good, but i've definitely had worse days. Im just really tired, and sooo happy that the weekend's here. And we also got the day off on monday :) I dont have any plans, maybe I should, but Im too tired to make any plans(and no one has asked me to hang out either so:P)
My mum just told me I was invited to my cousins birthday party tomorrow at noon, I really dont feel like going, but guess I have to :/
