its so strange you dont realise how similar you are to me, sometimes i used to pull my sleeves up on purpose and sit there in class with the scars visible just so this girl i like would notice and help me. however this (obviously) didnt make me any better in the long run, and only scared her off anyway.
i promise you, you are not a disgusting person at all, you just like the rest of us on here need a bit of special love and attention - no-one is going to 'throw you out' for needing help.
i hope you're feeling better soon
lots of love tigris x
*big hugs*
i'm like in complete agreeal with everyone on this!
and its reminded me of a wee situation i had:
i told my friend i'd been feeling crap and gone to cut myself a few times - but only got as far as bruising [she didnt know i'd done it before *guilty*] and she told me that it wasnt good. 2 days later she said i'm not having you hurt yoursef [when really it was nothing] and she marched me to the college councellor for help
to her it didnt matter that i hadnt done much the fact i would even go to do that was enough for her to give help
think that kinda reiterates what everyone has really been saying
trust me you don get anymore of a kick out of cutting deep - it just means your pushing your pain threshold up which may not neccessaily be a good thing because you could cause yourself alot of trouble
all the time you keep your cutting small your able to cope reasonably safely even though you really <b>shouldnt</b> be doing it to yourself hun
have you tryed talking to a councellor - they dont judge and it doesnt matter how badly your hurting yourself - they still help - it could help jus to have someone there for you
take care and stay safe hun xx
PM if you even need a chat i'll always help =]
The Soul Would Have No Rainbows If The Eyes Had Shed No Tears
[Laurel Burch]
Believe in yourself and your dreams. For when you do. You can achieve anything!
God, I've been absolutely terrified of admitting the attention side of things on here, so so scared that people will just hate me for it, thank you for not hating me.
I had a counsellor at school for about 6 months, she really helped but now I've left I haven't really got access to anything. I don't think I need anyone at the moment, I've learnt to recognise when I'm really really bad and know that when I reach that low (if!) I should get help then. Thank you again everyone Being on here helps, it lets me get stuff out that's better out than in. Or on. Thanks again.
I was the same way, at first I almost made it so that people would see. Like I really didn't bother to cover it up, and the few that I did want to know, that I wanted help from, I would kind of admit it to them... And the others that would question I would just say like yeah... Its nothing, my neighbor's cat.. Something like that..
I miss the lips that made me fly
But I guess I can live without you but without you ill be miserable at best
Youre all that I hope to find in every single way and everything I could give Is everything you couldn't take
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You're not horrible, It's absolutley normal to want attention for a problem that is haunting you so badly. You'd never be thrown out of RYL for that. Ever.
I hope you're doing okay. Take care.
On a long enough time line, the survival rate for everyone drops to zero.
*hugs* its good that you've learned to recognise when you need help. thats a great step forwards :) you should be proud of yourself for being able to do that. just keep fighting. you can get through this!
*cuddles* take care.
amialone, I'm so glad you've made this thread
Because a lot of people feel the way you do and I really appreciate your honesty in admitting how you feel sometimes, just because it makes it a lot easier for other RYL'ers to say that they've felt the same way as you sometimes.
Your absolutly not a bad person and your not going to be thought bad of on here for being honest.
In the past when I felt particularly bad and wanted help I sat in my lesson in college once and "accidently" pulled my sleeve up a little bit so that somebody could see a cut.
I think at the time I just desperatly wanted somebody to realise that I wasn't okay and this was the only way I could comminicate that to anybody.
We all need some attention and care sometimes and when your feeling desperate it might be the only way you can think of communicating this to anyone. This doesn't make you a bad person, a lot of people have felt the same way as you on here.
I'm rambling now, what I'm trying to say is, nobody on here thinks badly of you, your being really honest and I appreicate that and I can emphisise with you because I've felt exactly the same as you have, so please don't think your a bad person or anything!
"In the driest whitest stretch of pains infinate desert, I lost my sanity, and found this rose"
your in no way stupid for saying or feeling like that - if im honest i feel the same way - i wouldnt cut much either and it was never really deep,and felt like i shouldnt be here, but chickpea, self harm is self harm whatever package you put it in and your not a fraud! we all get that feeling that we are "proper" self harmers, but that just the stupid voices of self destruction.
remember you can always talk if you need anything, my pm box is always open!
I've heard some people say the same thing before. The phrase I think sums it up perfectly is "The size of the wound is not directly proportional to the size of the distress."
Being on here helps, it lets me get stuff out that's better out than in. Or on. Thanks again.
Ever. 
