Hi guys... Im sitting in my room right now. Itīs 01:45 in the night here in sweden, and Iam trying not to trigger my self into cutting. What I hate the most, is that if I go to sleep earlier, i usually never get these feelings.
Why is the night so extremely hard? Why am i so damn pathetic that i cant stop hurting my self beyond repair? It seems more hopeless the more i cut, but itīs like something inside me, that screams for attention, and it grows louder and louder, until i cut...
I love life, but sometimes it just feels so wrong.
Nighttime is a very tricky time of day! If you're having trouble sleeping, read a book, listen to soothing music or scribble down anything playing on your mind. These can also serve as distractions, especially ranting! Do any particular distractions/alternatives work really well for you? *hugs*
I think night time is hardest for most people because its when you feel most alone. That's the way it is for me. That's why when at night, if none of my friends are online, or txting me, or I just can't find someone to talk to, then I go right to bed because I know the bad feelings are just going to get worse if I stay up.
But you know everyone here on RYL is here for you to talk to.
You can PM me anytime, and I'll try to reply ASAP.
*huggles*
I miss the lips that made me fly
But I guess I can live without you but without you ill be miserable at best
Youre all that I hope to find in every single way and everything I could give Is everything you couldn't take
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i know what you mean, nights are usually the hardest for me too. i usually just listen to music and keep trying to fall asleep, even though a lot of times when i'm triggered and stuff it takes hours...but i know if i stay awake, it'll just be worse. and like you already said, if you could try to go to bed earlier, that might help. pm me anytime, i'll respond asap. take care xx
nights are the hardest it is a very triggering time when you are alone. for some reason leaving the tv or radio on helps me because the silence of night drives me nuts. and i catch up on any reading i need done for class if you can;t think of any othre distractions come here to RYL someone is always on (well it seems that way anyways) willing to help
we are here to help pm me any time i will respond as fast as i can
-rach
I'm another person who hates nightime
It doesn't help that I hear voices of a nightime as well
It keeps me up and they are always telling me to hurt myself
I find the best thing to do is ring a friend, text sombody, put the tv on
or sometimes just going to sleep and ending the day that way is the best way.
Can totally emphisise with you though (can't spell doh!)
I've just come out of hospital (was in for 4 months)
and the silence is horrible. I just feel so bored, empty alone
and sometimes I need to cut because there is nothing else to do, as silly as that sounds.
"In the driest whitest stretch of pains infinate desert, I lost my sanity, and found this rose"
