Triggering (SI) - when i was younger...

[Wonderland.]

Hey all.
Sorry for posting loads i'm just questioning alot of things atm.

Anyway when i was younger before i classed myself as a self harmer like when i was seven or something. i used cry loads then as i got alder went onto to bash my head against the wall when i got really angry and i didnt know how to control my emotions and then kicked and punced walls and stuff and then tried to scratch my face off because i didnt want to be me i think.

Would you class that as self harm coz i've never really thought about it like this before but i know it gradually got worse and worse. ooh and i used to try and give myself chinese burns and pinch myself. god i was some wierd child.

I usually did this when my parents were having an argument. i'd cry for them to stop make them see they were upseting me but they never stopped.

Amy x

[Tuesday]

i think i would call it SH. i sort of did this when i was little too...when i was about 8 i slammed my head into the couch one time at a weird angle because i was frustrated and seriously hurt my neck...i never realized it until i was older, but i guess stuff like that could be considered self harm.

[Amaryllis]

Yep, it definitely counts as SH.

[l'il esky]

i suppose technically it is but i think then there would be millions of sh-ers, cos i think prob lots of people have punched a wall in frustration or something. the chinese burn/pinching thing is prob def sh-just not as extreme as other forms of sh,

i was quite an angry little thing when younger and would hit things etc but i think thats what kinda started it off cos ive never been able to deal with my emotions.

[Tuesday]

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Originally Posted by l'il esky

i suppose technically it is but i think then there would be millions of sh-ers, cos i think prob lots of people have punched a wall in frustration or something. the chinese burn/pinching thing is prob def sh-just not as extreme as other forms of sh.

yeah i guess it just depends on the situation and the person. if they're generally just not good at dealing with emotions and do that sort of thing a lot, i guess that makes it more SH than people that punch a wall once in a while or something.

[deadroseesmaj]

I think alot of people start out doing things like that when they were little, I know I did. It proubly has to do with the fact that some people cant hold emotions and as you get older it gets harder because little kids tolorate emotion best.
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[Animad]

Yeah, technically it probably is.

9 months ago when I saw a psych specifically because of my SH he asked me how long it had been going on so I told him but later on as we were talking about stuff from the past (the little bits I could tell him!) we came to the conclusion I'd been pretty much doing it forever because I used to always hit my leg/dig my nails into myself and things and just never classed it/ thought of it as SH or really even remembered it.

[Wonderland.]

Thank you so much for all your replies :)
It is a quite scary thought but i think it is true.
Even though i wasn't aware of what i was doing to myself.
I was probably to young to understand all them emotions and how to deal with them.

Amy x

[I-Feel-Infinite]

see i have a theory that people are born with a tendancy to SI.....
because I DEF did things to deliberately hurt self when I was younger - unaware that I was harming myself though....
like ripping out hair when I was upset....
jumping off stairs to hurt ankles...
dislocated my jaw once accidently, then after that, because i knew it was loose, i kept deliberately trying to dislocate it again....

thinking about it feels SO ****ed up!!!!

but yeah, i think that what you did counts as SI - because it can really start at any age...

[Samz]

i agree with the tendency to SI thing, i think that a lot of little kids do it because they're working out what hurts, how far they can push themselves etc.
but i would count that as SI.. i think i did a lot of the same