Triggering (Sexual Abuse) - Help?

Spoons · 11-05-2008, 01:01 AM

im struggling, my therapist wants to talk about abuse, i cant, she keeps asking me questions, not always sa but abuse in general and shes so persistant, it makes me so angry, angry that she seems insensitive, angry at myself for not being able to talk about things.

in general im so ****ing angry, that it all happened, that i have to talk about it, that i cant talk about.

some things are just so humiliating, even though i know they are directly linked to ed stuff. but its not just that its not wanting to talk about things in general. i dont want them to control my life, i dont understand why it has such an effect on my life but not on my sisters, well it doesnt seem to, not as it has done me anyway.

i got so angry last session that i just got up and left, i dont know what to do for the best.

any suggestions on what to do.

troubleshooter · 11-05-2008, 01:12 AM

Maybe tell her to stop pushing so hard and try writing things out in a diary or here on RYL first. *hugs* She shouldn't push so hard, this is rough stuff to deal with and talk about. I'm sure in time you can do it hoeny.

*Fading_existence* · 11-05-2008, 05:27 PM

Hey hun,
Maybe write a letter saying you find it difficult to talk about and maybe explain why you find it hard?
It is very difficult, i wont even say what happened to my counsellor (i wrote him a letter) and i shudder when he says the word "abuse" but in time it gets easier you get used to it. He brings it up and makes me talk about it he is very blunt with me and i cant deal with that well but just say what you feel comfortable saying she shouldnt force you more than that. They wont control you hun, sadly though these things need to be talked about or shared to get through and to know how to deal or cope with them. Please dont be cross with yourself you have done nothing wrong at all. xxx

ghosts in the machine · 11-05-2008, 10:10 PM

Sometimes we need to be made to talk about things that happen - I know I'd never bring some things up voluntarily - but if she's pushing to fast/far for you then definitely let her know. The writing a letter is a good suggestion. *hugs* take care xx

cutupangel09 · 13-05-2008, 04:27 PM

Talking about abuse is really hard sweetie. I know that you feel like you shouldn't or that you can't talk about it. It is worth it in the long run. She wants you to talk about it for a good reason. It will help you. Keeping that burden to yourself can hurt you. No one should have to deal with that pain by themselves.