Triggering (SI) - ************ ><

[Detour. Derail]

I.Fel.****ing.Useless.><

The one person I care most about in my ENTIRE ****ing life...
the one person I am struggling on for....
the one person who has given me SO much help...even if she doesnt realise it...

and I can't even pissing help her!
What kind of a friend does that make me?!
I fl soooo triggered its untrue....
I dont WANT to see her like this ><
but its not even her issues that are triggering me...its the fact im useless...the fact i cant help..
everyone always said i was useless...
"useless little alex...cant get anything right....never has never will...what a let down"
WHY ARE THEY SO RIGHT?!!?! ><

She deserves someone better..no matter what she says...they ALL deserve someone better...
someone better than me...

ARGH **** ><

This thread. Is a waste of space. Abit like me really.

[_Mariana_]

im sorry you're feeling so bad. i promise you are not a waste of space but i know me saying that wont make you believe it. i hope things start getting better for you and your friend. take care of yourself and just hugs really. x

[Just Believe.]

It can be hard to help others when you are feeling bad yourself. I'm sure that your friend knows how much you care about her and that in itself will help her. Try and not put too much pressure on yourself, take care of you too.

You aren't a waste of space and I'm sure your friend would agree on that.

*cuddles*

Kirsty x

[effervescence]

alexx, you're NOT a waste of space hun. i know it's awful when people are struggling and you can't help them. it's such a hopeless feeling. try not to hurt yourself, you are not useless, and what you can do is be there and be STRONG for her, to show her that it is possible to go though problems and come out the inside. she can draw hope fron your strength, and we know you are strong because you have come your own stuff and are still here and still caring about people.
xxx