Triggering (SI) - My friends

[WhenWillThisEnd]

**sorry its so long**

so i had thid best friend... we got in a big fight and we hated eachother more than anything. That is until like 2 days ago... now we are actually talking!! its crazy how things happen. she use to do coke and cut sometimes too, and she is now in a medical program aqnd going to be a doctor and she really has her life back together now. so i randomly wrote her on myspace and asked her how she managed to turn her life around... she actually called me that night and we meet and talked.

she had gone in and talked to my old manager/ one of my heros... and asked her what in the hell i was talking about... and y i would want to know how to get my life back. My manager gave her a breif explanation. So we talked and she really wants to help me.

she told me today that she would sometimes ask sarah (manager) how i was doing (when we were not friends) baceuse she said that everytime she saw me at school i looked like hell on earth... and she wanted to make sure i was okay. She also told me that when sarah had told her that my cutting has become out controll... she was praying that it was a lie...

so she is like staging an intervention for me.... its crazy how u can go from being best friends... to worst enemies... to talking again. i feel bad though... idk if she realizes how bad it is... i dont want to push her away again too. i cut my calfs up bad last night... and she just made sure i was okay... its odd

[Animad]

It's quite possible for friends to make up with you. I've had similar things happen to me regarding my SH but then we've had an argument about it since and I know I'll probably never be mates with at least two of them again because of it because of how much they destroyed me. It might be worth talking to her about how it and what she actually thinks about the situation you're in and tell her it might really help you to know how she pulled through it.

Also, as you've said your cutting has become out of control it may be worth seeing a doctor and getting some form of counselling and/or therapy and see ifthey help. Talking to your friends/ family if you can may also help you to turn your life around and distracting yourself when you get the urge to cut yourself.

[green.eyes]

this is great hun. try to remember that she obviously really cares about you and pushing her away will hurt her a lot. try to let her help and remember that if she got through this you can too.
good luck
x

[WhenWillThisEnd]

i have been in therapy and on meds... didn't help.
Im better with my friends and without Meds and Therapy.
I just need to let the past go and move on... then i can get batter.