Triggering (SI/OD) - Tired of feeling so needy and alone

[purplestardust2]

I`m sorry if this is in the wrong forum, but I SIed the other night seriously, and I`m so sick of feeling so alone and so needy, I do the most horrible things to get attention from other people, (not the self harm) but other things, I feel unlovable and disgusting and needy and attention seeking, I think everyones fed up of me, I`m constantly looking for a mother figure and being let down by them. I hate myself so much, and I can`t seem to get through a night at the moment without SIing or ODing I feel like **** so everyone else must think that. I just want to feel normal, and I`m so sick of life and who I am at the moment I just don`t know what to do.

[green.eyes]

hey
sounds like thing are incredibly difficult right now. have you tld anyone like a doctor/counsellor how you feel? you don't have to do this on your own hun.
as for the attention seeking- it sounds like you're trying to let people know that things are seriously wrong or to confirm to yourself that people care about you by getting their attention. either way- don't blame yourself for that, recognise that it's part of the way you're feeling right now and is helping you cope.
if you're not safe then i suggest you go to A and E and ask to speak ot an on duty psychiatrist, you mightthen be offered further help- either way it might get you through the night. keep talking to us on here and try to keep yourself ditracted. go for a walk, play music, ring somone for a chat etc.
take care
PM me anytime
xx

[purplestardust2]

I`ve got a counscellour and a psychiatrist and a cpn but none of them is making any difference I still feel like crap.

[green.eyes]

these thigns take time hun. i know that doesnt help when you're so low now but it won't alwaysbe this bad. keep talking to people about how you feel and try to do things you enjoy as much as possible.
hang in there x

[purplestardust2]

I`m tryingx

[green.eyes]

i know hun *huggles*

[purplestardust2]

I just want some one to love me unconditionaly even if I self harm scars and all I want some one to take the pain away