Triggering (SI) - I Feel So... Alone.

ohayla11289 · 27-04-2008, 01:25 PM

I Don't know what to do anymore. I just feel like I am alone in the world, No one knows that i cut. Well i had stopped for over a year, and recently started again, so no one thinks i still do it.
It feels like I have no one to talk to about any of it. I feel like such a loser sometimes. I can't tell my friends about my cutting, they would probably think I am doing it for attention.
Someone who i was really close to said that to me once, and after that is when i stopped for a while, and not like I'm going to tell him. Grrr. I just want to slice my arm away. like just so much that you can't even see an area that is not red. I never talk about this stuff because i think that everyone will just think i'm a stupid girl who just wants attention. Erghhh. sorry for the rant. It was pointless, just like my existence.

l'il esky · 27-04-2008, 01:50 PM

what made you start again? was it anything in particular. you are not alone here *cuddles* im here if you need a chat :) xx

Cazki · 27-04-2008, 03:14 PM

Heya there *Cuddles you* Stopping for over a year is brilliant! Im terribly sorry to hear that you have started harming yourself again. Do you know what it is thats made you start harming yourself again? Your not a loser at all. Your struggling and your going through a very dififcult time. Your not a stupid girl who wants attention. What is it that makes you think people will think you want attention? I dont think your attention seeking at all. I think your struggling and in need of support. You have done the right thing by making a thread and asking for support. If you can try and identify what it is that made you start harming yourself again then that will help. I know its not always possible to identify what it is that causes us to harm ourselves etc etc but it does help to try and find out what caused it even if you dont end up finding the cause.

Have you ever had any support for this before? Such as counselling? I really think that you would beenfit from talking to someone about this. especially as they will be able to spend more time with you. I do understand that this is difficult for you. Have you tried distracting yourself at all? There are a huge variety of distractions that you can try, such as going out for a walk, posting on the fun and distractions forum, watching a movie, listening to music, or you might find it beneficial by writing down your thoughts and feelings. This link also has lots of distractions that you could try http://www.recoveryourlife.com/forum...ead.php?t=1403 i hope that is of some help to you. Keeping fighting through this, you can beat this. We are all here for you you wont have to go through this on your own. Please take things in small steps a day at a time. Keep talking to us.

Take care best wishes Ian

TheSuffererComplex · 27-04-2008, 03:36 PM

You're not alone. I feel the same way a lot of the time. See my family isn't exactly in the know as to when I've last cut and eveything. And I have to forget telling anyone at school, or it would be the same situation, I'd be called an attention seeker.

So, yea, thats all the smart things I have to say.

Feel free to PM me if you need someone to talk to.