ILY so much but im to scared to tell you, i miss you more than you could ever imagine, ILY E I can't do this anymore, im slipping back into old habbits, you say we need to talk or more like i need to listen and remember what you say, you need to understand ILY but i cannot care for you the way you want me to, i cannot hug you or be cherpy, i cant say good morning and good night becuase to me life isn't good, i know i smile and i seem normal or atleast as happy as iv always seemed, but the truth is im slowly losing the will to live and im sorry i cant be happy or find the motivation to wake up or eat, i need you but ill never tell you this, ILY M I'm never going to say im not ok, and you always know when im not even when you cannot see me, you know and im so greatful your in my life i truely dont know what i would do if i lost you ILY W Im so shit, you tell me im not but i know i am, i cant even help you anymore what use am i, sorry R I know your goin through an extremely rough time and i know it seems like i dont care and have dismissed you but i haven't and i do care, i just don't know how to show you anymore, you know my should is and will always be yours to cry on, im always hear to listen even if you just want to scream im here, i may show no emotion or sypathy but you know ILY more than my pathetic excuse for a life so im sorry i haven't been there for you i swear im trying, and the answer to your question is no, but ill never let you know, so illl persist on saying 'yeah im ok' ^_^*massive hugs for L*
I am a guilty, horrid nasty fucked up cow.
I dont deserve you. I dont deserve any love.
i just keep making mistake after mistake, messing lives up and ruining myself.
#: i don't know if you're a distraction or not. but i hope not. because like, i think it might be kindof cool. lets wait until exams are over.
~: i didn't automatically associate you & that skirt today when i wore it. i guess that's a good thing.
i remember when you bought it for me and then brought it to my dad's shop and you were with erwin and it was after college one day, and i was like AW thats so cute, thank you. and actually you're not that much of a waste. or well, you probably are now.
but you were kindof nice back then.
it really is such a shame that you're a cunt now.
okay. byeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
So if you want to burn yourself remember that I LOVE YOU.
so if you want to cut yourself remember that I LOVE YOU.
so if you want to kill yourself remember that I LOVE YOU.
call me up before your dead, and we can make some plans
instead, send me an IM, I'll be your friend.
Why do you hate me?
Why do you seem to think all this is MY FUCKING FAULT?!
It's not.
It's yours.
And partly his.
But still, why is it since then we don't talk, constantly fight and generally hate each other?
You do realise that you were the only real friend i had and now i have no one.
And the onlny reason I haven't ended it all was because I thought you might try to contact me in some way.
But you haven't.
Do you even care?
And now you 'love' the one that you always bitched to me about.
You're so effing contradicting and I don't get you anymore.
I wish you knew what's been going on in my life. Sometimes I hope you could read my mind, and understand without me having to explain. I promise I'll tell you, if you promise to help me.
I'm scared this is too good to be true. It's just all so perfect and I'm scared it'll be me who fucks up. And that's the last thing I want to happen, if things stay as they are now it'll just be fantastic.
I dont know what to do.
I dont know what to say.
I dont know what I want.
Ignoring it ever happened feels like such a great option.
But thats not going to work for long.
Fuck.
Part of me wants to scream at you.
The other just wants to protect you.
I miss you so SO much. You still mean the world to me and I'm still living for you. I hope you miss me too. I still get scared you've killed yourself. I don't know what happened but I'm forever sorry and I will fix this. I love you angel. Please don't foget me.
You're a star the way you are
You know you're not fooling anyone, no
You got the eyes of an angel
Don't try to change, yeah
Everybody's got their scars
Nevermind how ugly they are
No matter what they tell you
You're beautiful the way you are
"You shouldn't have to pay for your love with your bones and your flesh"
What the hell are you doing?
skipping? drugs?
Yeah thats nice.
Just cause youre parents are messed up doesnt mean u have to go throw your life away.
I thought you were different than the other people.
but youre just like the girl you say you hate.
drink.pot.lie.skip
sound familuar dear?
I love you like my sister and i dont want to see you end up like i know youre going to if you dont stop.
please.
do it for me.
“I go to seek a great perhaps.” - Francois Rabelais (1494-1553) Last Words My Tumblr.
Please tell me its not what i think it is, and if it is why didn't you come to me? Why do you dismissme so easily, your acting like i dont care, like im the one ignoring you, when i said hello you completely blanked me, well ou know what.......Suck Eggs!!
Im friggin sick an tired of this, if your not gonna tell me theres something wrong what can i do!?!?!
if only you truly realized how much i long for you...how much it destroys me that you don't feel the same for me, when everything you describe in your ideal man is exactly who i am...if you and i were together, we would move mountains...the world would burn brighter and more incandescent than you could possibly imagine. but you choose mediocrity...and you're unhappy being in it, yet do nothing to free yourself from this half-life.
sadly, you and i will never be...and this truly destroys me.
