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[Atonement]

This poem is all about my anxiety disorder and how it physically effects me. I hope you get the picture.

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My leg wont stop,
It constantly shakes.
My mind wont stop,
It constanly aches.

School started my pain,
It triggered my attack.
I cannot control it,
It is a skill I yet lack.

My mind never relaxes,
It never is free.
I never can chill,
This is a huge problem, that I can see.

I had to see the doctors,
To stop all the pain.
They poked and proded me,
To see if I am sane.

All the questions they ask,
They just sit and wait.
Never looking away,
Deciding my fate.

It all starts again,
My shakes are going.
My brain is still racing,
My problem keeps growing!

All I can do is hope,
That it would be so grand,
But no,
You can't,
You can't understand!

Okay, because I dont want to spam up this forum more with my silly little poems, here is another one rather related to the one you hopefully just read.

Hope.


I want to let go,
I want to not cope,
I want to say no,
But I can't lose this hope.

I want to lose hope.
When all things are wrong,
I can't give up,
I am just too strong.

So much has happened,
Everything says to not go on,
But there are those that love me,
Those that think of me as their dawn.

All these people hoping,
Too many people care,
I keep on doubting,
Yet I say this little prayer.

"Even though I may be crazy,
Can I be healed?
I want to be free,
I want the truth to be revealed."

I want more than just faith,
I want to have a solution.
I need to find a way,
I need to have a retribution.

With my future barely uncertain,
I can't give up on something so clear,
I believe I have a life to come,
I just have to lose this fear.

My life is speeding before my eyes,
I dont know if I can cope.
I am so split on this...
I am giving into hope.

So, if you are still reading I must be doing pretty well, right? Well, here is a poem about regret, something that caused the anxiety in the first place. I hope you like it.

Regret

All lives are full of trials.
All people in life fail.
Some will linger on it,
And not be on the proper trail.

I have done a lot wrongs,
I have always been weak,
I can't get past these things,
It becomes hard for me to speak.

All that I think of is what I did,
You could say I even obsess.
This takes pronound effects,
I change and begin to regress.

My life has changed,
For what I remorse,
I just can't forget it,
I can't release the source.

We all have done wrong,
I have done my fair share,
I just take it too hard,
As if it is rare.

I cannot handle this all,
I go crazy with shame,
I could call it a mistake,
But it is not quite the same.

I am so scared,
I am becoming ill,
I just can't take it,
This will kill.

I try to release my baggage,
I want to get ride of this debt,
If only I could,
Relieve this regret.

[Eve of D.]

It sounds like your poems are helping you work through a lot of things. I'm so glad you're posting these, i think a lot of ppl can relate. I love 'Hope', i don't usually like the idea of hope, but i like ur description of it. it is like giving into hope. i'm glad u are! ur right, ur too strong not to. it gives me hope as well.
I hope you will find a way to forgive yourself from whatever you regret.
i love your poems, keep writing :)

[broken and defeated]

hey hun
these are awsome
hope ur having fun writing them
keep writing and ill keep reading
hugs Amy xoxox

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Brilliant !

I loved your poems esp the first one it would be great if someone makes a song out of it , they're touching , moving , and the emotions are very strong .
Keep writing please it will make you feelmuch better .

I have done a lot wrongs,
I have always been weak,
I can't get past these things,
It becomes hard for me to speak.

I can relate to this a lot , but , you are not weak your a fighter stay strong and keep fighting,

Always here if you need anything *cuddles*