I'm finding this whole adulthood thing impossible, and I'm bloody 20! Just listening to a song that reminded me of my mother when I was young made me break down. She only lives 20 minutes away but I'm finding living without her so hard. I just wish I could go and live at home and be looked after like a child.
Your age has no implication on how old you are, some young people are actually in there 40s and some older people are still in there teens, im just starting to learn how true this really is.
Im the same age as you and the fact you have even made the transition seems...amazing to me, I can't imagine leaving home, there's nothing wrong with missing her and there's nothing wrong, I don't think, with going home to see her or calling her as much as you want. Parents are important.
You wouldn't believe how child-like I am....and I won't say but then in other ways im older than my years. I guess im saying...there's nothing wrong with how you're feeling, 20 is nothing, my mum speaks to her parents every day and shes 49. Some people are closer to their parents than others, some are young, some are old and some are their perfect age.
My dilemma is slightly different. I'm 38, and long for the safe and nurturing childhood and parents that I never properly had. But never can have. It's too late.
I moved out of my parents home years ago [I think they had more trouble with it than I did..] and have a job and etc. But I struggle daily with this split off self of mine's pull to being a child again.
I know the feeling. I want to be looked after like a child as well. Isn't it sad? Growimg up? You know what you need? Some very close friends or a partner to take your mother's place in taking care of you. I think we probably spend our early adulthood trying to find people to continue to take care of us like when we were children and that is ok, just remember not to be greedy and take care of them in return as well.
"...that incremental suicide of turning your life into a dream, to make being awake as similar to sleep as possible. Drowsily, lazily, dry-mouth your way through the day's ceremonies, fumble your way back into the dew-bather you never really left, draped in brown, brown now all around, the haze!" - Russell Brand on drug addiction.
"Si ma êkh gûndo piyiamásko...ándo bírto barruno. Bírto, bírto barruno."
I know how you feel. I wish i was a kid again, my childhood wasn't great, but its a time where you worry less and feel happiness over the littlest things, i want that back. I find it hard to make decisions and no idea what i'm going to do as in a job ect, i'm at uni but no idea if it's right for me. Im 19 =[
I want to be a child again too =(
I don't understand why everyone is so exciting about growing up, getting a job and driving. It's too much. I'm scared. It doesn't seem fun at all. I still have teddies I sleep with too and I don't care what other people think, I need them.
*hugs everyone*
You're a star the way you are
You know you're not fooling anyone, no
You got the eyes of an angel
Don't try to change, yeah
Everybody's got their scars
Nevermind how ugly they are
No matter what they tell you
You're beautiful the way you are
"You shouldn't have to pay for your love with your bones and your flesh"
I know exactly how you feel, although it may seem pathetic considering im only 15. It's the innocence of childhood that we seem to lose. Sometimes i refer to mysel f as a child, because that's just the way i feel. We are all children on the inside.. scared alone, but nonetheless innocent.