I try . i really do. i try everysingle day to become a better person
but i cant!! im just too lost im just trapped within my own mind. my own pain, my own fear!! i cant stand this one more day!!
and it hurts that there's nothing i can do about it.. cuz i still care for those people who "love me" or care about me!!
i cant understand why everysingle night i cry, or why in the middle of a class i cry. or why i have the need to cut my pain away, why i feel lonely!? whyyy!!
i cant believe that this is happening to me..i feel like ana & mia forgot me and GOD lets not talk about him!!
WHY HE'S DOING THIS TO ME!
WHY HE LEFT ME ALONE. I LOVE MY MOM BUT I ALSO NEED A DADDY.. BUT HE TOOK HIM AWAY FROM ME!!
MAYBE ITS TRUE, GOD ONLY DO THIS TO THE PEOPLE HE KNOWS CAN HANDLE IT.. MAYBE IT WILL MAKE ME STRONGER BUT IM NOT GETTING STRONGER IM JUST WEAKER.. IMM GETTING WEAKER AS EACH DAY GOES BY!!
IM TIRED OF DEFENDING MYSELF!!
tired of explaining!!!!!!!!!!!!
****KKK im usch a babyy im cryingg.. so ffukkiinnn muchhhh andddd idkk if its angerr or sadness.. but i need a fukinn blade to takee my pain away!! i just need a friend to understand..
i need sombody to save me .. i need a hero to save me from death . from the loneliness, from the sadness
SOMEBODY SAVE ME FROM MYSELF!!
im destroying my body everysingle day.. im destroying it!
im destroying who i am..
i dont even know WHO I AM ANYMORE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
suicide seems the only way out..
