Kat, darling
You've asked me that before, and I still don't have a straight answer. I wish I did. In reality, it's so wrong because you're hurting yourself and could do a lot of damage to yourself. I know that that's whitewashing it a bit, and you don't want to hear that but what if you accidentally killed yourself?
It destroys lives, and while those around you aren't physically being cut, they are mentally. Emotional damage can be worse then physical, because you can shake away the feeling that hurting yourself gives you -- your husband can't shake away how it makes him feel to know you've hurt yourself, how he imagines it to feel, etc.
If you're worried about hurting others, find out why you get so agitated. Talk to someone, find out what started this and find methods you can try so that you don't always resort to SI. It's a long road, and if one of the things holding you back from stopping is that you're worried about others, then you need to try and sort through that.
I know you don't want to stop, but please at least find ways and things that you can try to do instead, ok love? I'm worried about you and I'm worried about how you're thinking... I think that talking to someone, writing down how you're feeling when you want to and finding tactics to avoid it can help. If not, try meditation or yoga, things that will help you relax.
Ok hun? <3
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