i feel dead

[bitzy]

i think the title says it all..
i feel "near the end" is the only way i can put it
i really dont want to live.... im empty... nothing to live for.... i want 2 cut but im trying not to

i really need 2 talk to sum1... i cant talk to my friendsor family cos even being around any1 makes me feel very angry n i dont know why

i feel really sick... ive got pills nd i want 2 take them...

i dont want to die but i dont want to be alive.... does that sound stupid sorry if im not makin sense

[I-Feel-Infinite]

hey hey....
you can ALWAYS talk to me - PM me...

i understand what it must feel like for you right now... the whole not wanting to live and not wanting to die thing....
like you're trapped between the two...

but my dear, you have SO much to live for. the reason you're having doubts about wanting to die shows that even you (maybe subconsciously) know yourself that your life is worth living..

i've felt near the end many times... i have attempted many times too....
but each time, after i've cleared my mind up.... i carry on living - because i know that i'm worth it - even if i cannot find a reason now - i WILL find a reason to in the future...

and about the being angry thing - been there too! it's natural to feel angry. maybe you've seen too much of the same people over and over again?! i suggest taking a break - i often feel like i need a break from my friends! calm self for a bit.
often you may not know why you feel like this - but have you tried writing things down? sometimes that may release something you didn't know was hidden deep down!

i really hoped i somewhat helped... and i'll always be here to talk.
stay safe

xxxxx

[KrissyInterupted]

i feel the same right now :(

[*Sleepy_ Dreamer*]

i know how you feel so much. all i can say is if you take the pills or if you cut you might not feel so numb but you and i both know it will only be for a little while and then you'll feel worse cause you'll feel all guilty and rubbish. just take a moment and think if that tiny moment of pain and feeling something is worth how bad your going to feel after. i always feel like such a hypocrite saying this stuff but im just trying to help. you always have someone to talk to theres thousands of us please remember that . i know it's hard but don't bottle it up cause when i do that and i think it is the same for most people it ends in me hurting my self. pm me or anyone just talk and get it out of your system .
hope you ok
rach x

[bitzy]

thanx for all ur replies
i know im not really makin anysense at the mo
i know i say i want to talk but then wen it comes to it i cant or dont want to
i feel like im gonna explode nd to go to sleep nd not wake up is the only way out of this fog
i dont know where to turn... i just feel hopeless

[*Sleepy_ Dreamer*]

you need to find away to let it all out other than hurting your self write it down draw. when i feel like that i just go out side and f**king run . just try and find something to do to take your mind of it. i know how you feel believe me it will get better. you can beat this
rach x

[bitzy]

ya i run too. im a junkie
thanx for ur advice i hate takin up any1s time so i appreciate ur help lots
x

[broken and defeated]

hey

i know how your feeling
pm me if u want to talk and i also heve all the time in the world

huggs

[bitzy]

i dont really know how 2 talk 2 any1 anymore
does that sound odd? i think so

[Squiffie_1]

Of course it doesnt sound odd honey. I know how you feel.You are doing extremly well just letting us know how you feel, and opening yourself up to support.
Please know that even if your family and friends may not express it, someone cherishes you, and we do here! You can do it! If you need to PM me, you are always welcome.
*lots and lots of big hugs*
xxxx

[broken and defeated]

hey it doesnt sound od
but im here if u want to talk
huggs
Amy

[bitzy]

maybe so..... doesnt feel like that tho
i hate being alive
god im like a broken record... sum1 shut me up..

[KrissyInterupted]

stay strong.