Hey, could really use some advice and hugs right now.
Everything's happening so quickly, my head's still spinning. My CPN has arranged funding for me to be admitted to the Priory next week, I have an admission assessment Monday morning so I think it's going to be Tuesday when I actually go in. I've never been so terrified, nor so relieved...My head's all over the place. I don't think it's really hit me yet as it's all happened so suddenly, this time last week I was still waiting to be seen by the NHS consultant and the idea of inpatient treatment seemed ludicrous and a million miles away. Can anyone give me any idea of what I can expect to happen next week? And what sort of things I should be packing, what they will/won't let me have etc?
*hugs*
Lyndsey x
I'm not afraid to fall,
It means I climbed up high.
To fall is not to fail,
You fail when you don't try.
Heyah sweetie,
first good luck with going inpatient
I know its seems very scary but it can be really helpful if you work with them which at times will be hard.
They are going to try and help you they will only do whats best for you.
I know when it happens quick it can seem very overwhelming because when I went ip it happned in the space of 2 weeks.
When you first go someone will probably just explain whats going to happen like the routine and where things are and meal plans
in your admission assesment they will explain to you what you should bring although the obvious things will be like dont take any sharp things, pills etc should be handed in and they will look after them and give them when needed.
Take some things to keep you occupied like books maybe an mp3 or person cd player some place will let you have a mobile and some will only let you have a phone that doesnt have a camera.
try not to worry too much and if you want to talk feel free to pm
also just thought Id mention the priory??
Yeah my friend who was in the mcguinnes unit in prestwich got moved to there I think she still is if so she is called jenny. She is a really lovely girl
=]
take care sweetie
katy
xx
You're entirely bonkers. But I'll tell you a secret. All the best people are.
Sweetheart, I can't add much to what Katy has said, but I just wanted to send you some big squishes and love
*squishes and love*
I know that going to IP is very scary and seems like it's all happening very fast for you, but it really is for the best. You'll be ok sweetheart I promise.
Take care of yourself over the next few days ok hunny? Rest up and try and stay as relaxed as you can.
My Pm box is always open hun, and I'm on MSN almost all the time if you need someone to talk to.
Take care sweetheart
xxxxxxxxxx
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I see free cheese
And a ****ing challenge
hi my ex has just come out of the priory, not for that reason but its a really good place to go.
i know this can seem so scary right now but babe jsut think its going to be for the best, its all really up in the air i know but jsut take one step at a time, i cant really say what its going to be like because like you were im waiting for my NHS assessment, but just to let you know if you need some support PM me i dont live to far away and if you need someone who can relate to how you feel then im here for you.
Thanks everyone *massive huggles* Still a bit all over the place, struggling to get my thoughts out at the moment so I'll reply properly when I get to mys sister's later...
*hugs*
Lyndsey x
I'm not afraid to fall,
It means I climbed up high.
To fall is not to fail,
You fail when you don't try.
IP can be scary at first but dont worry you are there to get better and be looked after.
make sure you take loads of books and things with you.
good luck hunny, i hope it works for you.
xxxx
" my precious, precious child, I love you and I would never, never leave you during your times of trials and suffering. When you see only one set of footprints it was then that I carried you" you were carried out of are lifes into the next and when its my time to leave this life I know i will be carried into the next life with you.
I wish i had my world complete again.
'Can we protend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars, i could really use a wish right now' BoB
good luck sweetie,
everything is going to be alright.
once everything calms down.
i know its scary but just think you'll make new friends, and have a chance to catch up on reading, drawing, whatever hobbies you have and you may even get some new ones.
I know someone who went to the priory for depression - much older then you mind and it helped them lots.
xox
When we lose twenty pounds... we may be losing the twenty best pounds we have! We may be losing the pounds that contain our genius, our humanity, our love and honesty. ~Woody Allen
Is a chocolate muffin loving glitter ball
good luck sweetheart, i think this is such a positive step. :) its hard when things happen so quickly, but at least you are getting the help you need. Keep us updated as to how the intake appoitment goes lovely. sending gentle thoughts your way x x x
Ineloquence and [anger]..
Ipromise I won't always love these selfish things [I wont always live in my regrets]
" my precious, precious child, I love you and I would never, never leave you during your times of trials and suffering. When you see only one set of footprints it was then that I carried you" you were carried out of are lifes into the next and when its my time to leave this life I know i will be carried into the next life with you.
I wish i had my world complete again.
'Can we protend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars, i could really use a wish right now' BoB
*Squishes all round* You're all amazing, I hope you know that!
I've been assessed and had a look around the hospital, been asked to go in on Thursday morning to be admitted. Feeling a little calmer about it now, I feel less in limbo now that I've seen the place and know what to expect. The hospital's gorgeous, if I've got to spend the spring and summer cooped up, at least it will be somewhere pleasant. I'll be started on half portions and they'll work me up from there, even half portions are going to be a massive struggle to begin with though, three or four times what my body's used to. We have four groups every day, all the usual nutrition, body image, assertiveness, anger management, individual therapy etc, plus drama, music, art and loads of other stuff I can't remember (there was a hell of a lot to take in!). The structure of the hospital isn't like anything I've seen before; the Eating Disorders Unit is housed in a seperate building but all of the bedrooms are mixed together in the main building, which looks more like a hotel than a psychiatric unit. I've been told that I can take anything with me to help make my room feel more like home and anything that they have to take off me (razors, scissors, tweezers, hair straighteners etc) will be available whwnever I need them, so I won't end up looking like a banshee! : P
I'm still terrified, I'm not sure that I'm ready to let go of my eating disorder but I genuinely do want to give it everything I've got and get better now. The next few months are going to be so so tough and there will be days when it's so tempting to fall back int the familiarity and safety of my anorexia, but if I can just find the strength to see it through, it will be worth every moment.
Will let you all know how things are once I'm settled and manage to get online, thank you again for all your kind words and thoughts, it really means a lot to me.
*hugs*
Lyndsey x
I'm not afraid to fall,
It means I climbed up high.
To fall is not to fail,
You fail when you don't try.
Glad ur feeling calmer about it, sounds like its a good place for recovery; hope it all goes well for you... You sound quite positive about it which is good :)
Hope everything goes well there
Keep us posted on how you're doing and everything,
Take care
xx
I'm glad your feeling better about it now
good luck sweetie
you can get through this
Let us know how your getting onwhen you can
take care
much love
katy
xx
You're entirely bonkers. But I'll tell you a secret. All the best people are.
