*sends lots of good luck to chocostashchick (i dont know your name!)*
*lots of hugs*
xx
edit: Callie! *waves and sends more good luck*
Scabette is my RYL Sister
I don't care if it hurts..I wanna have control..I want a perfect body..I want a perfect soul...I want you to notice..when I'm not around.. I wish I was special..so very special..but I'm a Creep...I'm a weirdo...what the hell am I doing here...I don't belong here" "Such Beautiful Dignity in Self Abuse" ~ Richey Edwards (Manic Street Preachers)~
*Skips over*
*sits down*
*curls up with blanket and irish coffee (haha)*
*Happy 18th Birthday Helen!!!!!!*
*scatters balloons and stars and huge hugs*
*curls up again n gets comfy for the night*
Edit: damm am a minute early!!
Last edited by Small_Black_Flower : 07-03-2008 at 01:00 AM.
Reason: blah
Scabette is my RYL Sister
I don't care if it hurts..I wanna have control..I want a perfect body..I want a perfect soul...I want you to notice..when I'm not around.. I wish I was special..so very special..but I'm a Creep...I'm a weirdo...what the hell am I doing here...I don't belong here" "Such Beautiful Dignity in Self Abuse" ~ Richey Edwards (Manic Street Preachers)~
*cries quietly in her corner*
I have a counseling session tomorrow and I have to tell him about my last two ODs and I don't want to...
I'm selfish, impatient, and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I'm out of control, and at times hard to handle, but if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best.
~ Marilyn Monroe
Location: Denial Tent, Virtual Psych Ward Campsite, MA, USA
I am currently:
good luck alyssa honey
*offers tea*
i am so messed up right now :(
definitely took something i wasnt supposed too last night and i am still all funny
and i am at work
i am so dysfunctional that was such a mistake
sad part: dont think i would survive the day without it though
StillBroken is my cool lil sis!!! - surprising mystery is my uber-cool monkey!!!zowie is my lil sis !!!!- LetDeathEmbraceUs is my Wolfie !!!
BrokenKisses is my DizzyCandyFloss !!! rachel487 is my lil sis !!! nuttergirl is my kool neice !!! CrazyKat is my book buddie !!!
NO MATTER HOW BAD YOU FEEL - ONE NICE PM TO SOMEONE NEW A DAY HELPS!!! TRY IT!!!
of course you can PaperClip (sorry don't know your name)!
*Hugs Callie and everyone else who needs it* How are you feeling now hun? *offers Callie water to flush the stuff out her system* Hope work isn't too bad.
*hugs Ally* How did your counselling appointment go? Here if you want to talk x
Thanks hun
Welcome paper clip. We have stuffed animals, warm blankets, coffee, tea, and whatever else you may want.
My counseling session went alright today. He didn't lock me up and to be honest I was a little worried about that so *phew*. He did use the 'h' word and seems to think it is a very real possibility... then again I suppose it is with suicidal folks
Damn...
I'm selfish, impatient, and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I'm out of control, and at times hard to handle, but if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best.
~ Marilyn Monroe
Don't worry about making noise 12vampire34 (sorry I don't know your name!). Are you alright? *offers hugs and some yummy hot chocolate*
*hugs Rowie* Unfortunately I know exactly what you mean but we are here to love and support you for as long as you need it. Stay strong x
Ally, I think you were incredibly brave to go today and you never know the 'h' may not even be necessary but You are clearly struggling at the moment and deserve all the help and support available. Take every opportunity they offer hun *hugs* x
Thanks Emma hunni.
Callie, are you ok sweetie? What happened... Remember I love you sweetie...
I'm selfish, impatient, and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I'm out of control, and at times hard to handle, but if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best.
~ Marilyn Monroe
He (my counselor) just ruined it. I understand it but he just ruined it.
I am now in the middle of an email conversation about pain meds and wouldn't it be a good idea if I got rid of it and well maybe I could just keep a small amount...
My reply to the second (small amount) email... Having it is a security thing... And besides it's expensive and I just recently bought a new bottle.
And I've probably dug myself in more...
Latest email?'How about you send me an email each day letting me know how safe you are feeling'
What am I a child? He should have locked me up would have saved him the worry...
I'm not being fair I know...
I'm selfish, impatient, and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I'm out of control, and at times hard to handle, but if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best.
~ Marilyn Monroe
Location: Denial Tent, Virtual Psych Ward Campsite, MA, USA
I am currently:
aww alyssa
i am really sucky and i totally messed myself up even more because yeah therapy crap lol
welcome effervescence btw come on in join the club
and hi emma and rowie
anyway alyssa hun i think your therapist is really nice
and maybe emailing him could be a way of like keeping in touch
no more childish or protective than checking in on RYL is!
think about it, we usually come on in and post at least once a day, usually more, and keep tabs on eachother
he is just doing the same thing!
i know it is scary and that you think it is all ruined
but it isnt
and if he wanted you in hosp you would be there! trust me! they dont mess around with that! people get sectioned every day and if they wanted to do it to you, they would
so anyway i think you could email him, maybe give it a try
*end of really long post - passes out refreshments*
