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Possibly Triggering - Attempted Comeback
I wrote this last night ... it's about my cutting, which I haven't done in two months, but have been tempted by lately...
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We were never close friends.
To be more honest,
I despised you.
Because you had this control over me,
So twisted, I thought it was me
Who controlled your every move.
I had no reason to doubt it,
Though it was the other way around.
After three years,
Three terribly excruciating years,
I removed you from my life.
It was time to let you go.
You've been trying hard to keep in touch,
Reminding me you'll always be there.
You pretend Id on't remember,
Like the scars you left aren't enough.
If only I could make you see
The million different ways
In which you've damaged me,
But you're so blind ... by choice, of course.
Now you want to come back,
Though you know I won't forgive you.
You had me addicted to the way you felt,
And you never gave it a second thought.
I do believe in second chances,
But I believe that you're not deserving
Of anything but rejection.
You won't gain my trust again.
But as you know, I must confess,
I miss you now, and I always have.
I want you to come back and visit sometime,
But I promised myself the opposite.
I can't take you back,
So never tempt me again,
Because you know I might give in,
But I know it won't be this time.
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