So I was raiding with my guild and we had wiped 4 times and on 5th try I was too busy healing the tank (thats my job) and then fire got cast on me so i ran out and healed me and through all of the confusion I didn't notice I was Doomed and then I died and a monster spawned from my corpse and the raid wiped. And we were heading towards the wipe anyways cause too many had died already. But everyone jumped on me and yelled and was like did you even pay attetion? did you even read tactics? don't run the wrong ****ing way! stupid! (the guild leader can get really nasty) and then they replaced me. It was a mistake I didn't notice, I didn't mean to wipe us D: but they jsut started being so mean and the healer leader was insensierly apologising that she was sorry to replace me. And I know she wasn't cause shes always telling me "you heal wrong, your gear sucks" and stuff and not including me, and I'm not cause I don't let people die and I last alot longer than all of the other healers :(
But it was just one mistake and then they were all saying i was useless and stupid and >.< replacing me which is like what i am always afraid of cause i always know i am not good enough but i try so hard and they were like your not even trying and i didn't mean to
so majorly triggered.
stupid stupid girl. just had to show them how worthleess and useless you are didn't you? your pathetic. should just crawl in a corner somewhere and die. such a waste of space.
and playing this is a large coping mechanism >.< so now i have nothing else. i'm such a failure. all i wanted to do was heal people and be helpful and i can't do it right at all.
