Triggering (Suicide) - i want to give up! im done with this life!

bleeding soul · 02-02-2008, 07:06 AM

i am now at my lowest point...i thought that when i went in the hospital it was my lowest point. i was so wrong. this is it. i feel invisible, in my own home. i feel like im not important. i hate myself and i hate my life. i truly want to die! i have so many bad thoughts running through my head right now. i want it to be over. i cant do it anymore. i wanna be done fighting. i am afraid of myself.
it hurts to feel like you dont matter to anyone. it hurts to think that if you were gone, no one would care. i am hurting! i am screaming on the inside! i feel alone, lost, invisible, and defeated. i cant fight this. im too weak, and i am out of ideas!
PLEASE HELP ME IF YOU CAN! i am at my end. this is it!

self_destruct321 · 02-02-2008, 07:19 AM

first off.. not to sound like a bitch.. but putting "emo" in your name is not a way to make people take you seriously..
but besides that.. i'm sorry you feel that way. <3 there's a lot of love on this site. and we'll always be here for you when others aren't. its like a big family. <3

tamobhuuta · 03-02-2008, 12:20 AM

i know it is difficult at the moment, but don't give up. you do matter, and people care about you and would miss you. sometimes there's nothing we can do when we feel so bad, but other people are there to be strong for us when we feel weak

Cazki · 03-02-2008, 12:50 AM

Hello there im really sorry that your feeling like this. Please dont give up though, please keep fighting through this. I believe in you and i care about you and i dont want to see you get hurt any more than what you already are, you dont deserve this at all. Could you talk to us a bit more about whats made you feel like this. I know its difficult but you can do this. We are all here for you. Suicide really isnt a good option at all, i know it feels like it to you but it would cause alot more pain specialy the people here at ryl, people would be really upset. We all care about you so much and we will do our very best to support you for as long as you need supporting.

Please dont end your life. There is a possibility that people would feel really really guilty if anything happened to you, and it could lead to them blaming themselves, for not being here for you and helping you enough. Im really really sorry that your hurting so much and for the pain that your going through. Things wont always be lik ethis things will get better, its impossible for me to say when they will get better but they will. Do you have any support in place? Please keep talking to us, please take it easy its important that you take care of yourself. Please keep safe.

Best wishes Ian

bleeding soul · 06-02-2008, 07:07 PM

i talk to my best friend about what is going on and stuff, to help me, but i really appreciate you guys. thank you for all your help. i quit taking my meds, becuz i felt like it was basically me as a robot and i really didnt want to be taking meds for the rest of my life. i think i am gonna start taking them again and see if it helps. i think....i havent made my mind up yet. thanks again for all your help