Triggering (SI) - being able to cry preventing si?
Have you ever found that, if you weren't able to cry, finally being able to just .. sit there and let the tears flow out somehow released that energy that gets built up inside you when theres an emotional overload - similar to the release of cutting but without the .. blood, pain and scarring.. >.< I dunno, I've had a tough couple of days and I've felt urges but I threw away my razors and I'm really trying to stop and for the first time in a long time I've been able to cry... cry a lot, and its been.. relieving.
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<3 Kae
never let it stop you. never let them tell you you can't do it, because every moment you fight you're winning a battle. never let the set backs stop you. when you're hurt, when you're tired? keep going. don't give up.
thats great that you threw away your razors and you are trying to stop!
I have found out that its relieving to cry, you know we cry to let out what we have inside, so yeah its true what you say.but i don't know if its the exact thing, you know if i feel the same as cutting, but its a release for sure.
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I started Self harming again because i couldn't stop crying. I was crying literally ALL the time and it was really inconveniant. Now i can't cry again and wish i could sometimes.
Life breaks most of us in the end, but afterwards some of us are strong in the broken places
~ Ernest Hemingway
^^ I find that too, I seem to sometimes get so hysterical I end up cutting when I didnt mean to. :/
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i dont cry havent done properly since i was about 11 im nearly 20 now and i cut from 13/14, but i think if i could cry i wouldnt cut.
i cut when i want to cry its my release
also well done on throwing your razors away x x x
Sick of Crying,
Tired of Trying
Yeah, im Smiling,
But inside im Dying
Somebody save me, i dont care how you do it, just save me
if i could cry i dont think i'd cut,i cant cry not even when im in physical pain, i dont cry when i cut,for example the other day i had my friend punch me in the face to see if i would cry but i didnt and he almost broke my nose. i think i cut when i want to cry
after I stopped cutting, I was crying instead every time I got upset. The problem is I got upset a lot right after I stopped. It's a good way to let the emotions out without cutting. But I find that people are awkward around you if you cry an awful lot. Sometimes I think I used to cut because it was a way to show emotions privately, without the awkwardness.
When I started cutting, it got harder and harder to cry when I was upset. It's like I could have one or the other. Now it's kind of hard to cry, even when I;ve stopped cutting, and a lot of the time, crying will be triggering, and I kind of just have to let myself keep crying until I have a headache and am exhausted... so it helps, but sometimes it doesn't.
