Sorry that things are so tough at the moment Beckie. I've not really known what to say but I've been keeping up.
Somewhat predictably for me, I just wanted to gently ask what the situation is with food at the moment? I know various people had been trying to refer you back to the ED team before this crisis, so I'm guessing it's not great. I know eating won't magically fix things, but in the past when you've been this exhausted and low it has coincided with your eating disorder flaring up so I wondered if there might be anything that could help with that side of things. You deserve to eat and your brain needs food to function and recover, even when it feels like the last thing you want to do.
Sorry if I'm way off I just wanted to check in.
'It's an impossible choice ... I'll just have to hope that when I flip the coin it somehow explodes and kills me.'
"You're not scared of climbing mountains. You're scared that you can't make them move."
Eating has not been 100%.
Struggling more because I've been incredibly hungry lately, which has sent me into a panic
But I dont think it's little enough to make me so tired, and I haven't been this low in a very long time. Not so low that I've made very specific and 'aggressive' plans (according to the crisis psych)
The ED team referral has been 'acknowledged' apparently. I have an appointment with my normal psych on the 13th Feb, so I'll probably find out if they're still saying they're not taking referrals.
Never apologise for asking! I am grateful you took the time to respond <3
I'm fine! Totally fine. I don't know why it's coming out all loud and squeaky, 'cause really, I'm fine!
The amount your a rv -ing and how restless you seem is makiing me concerned the Sertraline is making you manic. Can you try and mention it to crisis when you next see them?
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I also considered it doing that tbh!
But I think I'm probably fine
I just can't remember what not feeling depressed is like XD
I imagine my brain is trying to balance itself. If that is a thing
I'm fine! Totally fine. I don't know why it's coming out all loud and squeaky, 'cause really, I'm fine!
Eating has not been 100%.
Struggling more because I've been incredibly hungry lately, which has sent me into a panic
But I dont think it's little enough to make me so tired, and I haven't been this low in a very long time. Not so low that I've made very specific and 'aggressive' plans (according to the crisis psych)
The ED team referral has been 'acknowledged' apparently. I have an appointment with my normal psych on the 13th Feb, so I'll probably find out if they're still saying they're not taking referrals.
Never apologise for asking! I am grateful you took the time to respond <3
This all makes sense, and I am glad you have people fighting to get you the support.
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I also considered it doing that tbh!
But I think I'm probably fine
I just can't remember what not feeling depressed is like XD
I imagine my brain is trying to balance itself. If that is a thing
I'm not an expert or anything but your writing style does seem to have changed in the way it does when you start getting a bit zoomy, so it might be worth mentioning tomorrow? It can't hurt.
'It's an impossible choice ... I'll just have to hope that when I flip the coin it somehow explodes and kills me.'
"You're not scared of climbing mountains. You're scared that you can't make them move."
I'm glad you're going to mention it. I think the more honest you are the more likely you will be able to stay out of hospital although it might not seem that way to you. Catching things early on could stop them getting bigger.
I put it down on paper and then the ghost does not ache so much.
Don't try to calm the storm, calm yourself, the storm will pass.
Very restless!
My legs feel like there's electricity in them. I think it might be a side effect of the sertraline, so I took a procycladine. It hasn't seemed to have worked yet!
Thank you x
I'm fine! Totally fine. I don't know why it's coming out all loud and squeaky, 'cause really, I'm fine!
I saw crisis. She seemed to be pleased that I'm doing a lot better!
Possibly discharged next visit or visit after. She needs to discuss it with the team
I'm fine! Totally fine. I don't know why it's coming out all loud and squeaky, 'cause really, I'm fine!
Do you feel like you're doing a lot better? I don't know if I would agree with that although of course I can only understand a bit from what you're posting. Do you have an appointment arranged with your CC?
I put it down on paper and then the ghost does not ache so much.
Don't try to calm the storm, calm yourself, the storm will pass.
I hope you can get the restlessness (and everything else of course) sorted out. I got my meds decreased a while back and that's helped me with it. It was a different med but still hope yours will ease soon.
