I'm so sorry things are difficult for you and your family members. It can be extra hard when there are lots of people struggling at the same time. Do you have other family members who can support you all? Are you still seeing your therapist etc?
I put it down on paper and then the ghost does not ache so much.
Don't try to calm the storm, calm yourself, the storm will pass.
Did you hurt yourself or is this just something you're smelling? Please get help if you need it and haven't done so already. Do you think therapy has been making things worse recently? Will someone else step up to support you?
I put it down on paper and then the ghost does not ache so much.
Don't try to calm the storm, calm yourself, the storm will pass.
The voices have got worse since we started focusing on them in therapy but the psychologist said that was normal. I don't know what the plan would be if therapy was paused. My cpn said he would phone me today but I have just texted him, getting really strong urges to fly, getting stronger all morning.
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I tried to go but Mum heard me leave and said she would just follow me and stop me. She's persuaded me to call 111 together.
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111 said go to utc/a&e but I'm not going because I don't want what they have to offer. I've taken some PRN and am going to have a lie down. No point trying anything with my family alert.
Last edited by tamobhuuta : 06-08-2024 at 02:59 PM.
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Sorry you've not managed to get support that is suitable for you. How are you feeling now? Did your CPN get in touch? Sometimes therapy can be so stressful looking at difficult things that it causes you to go backwards a bit but that doesn't mean it will stay that way. Please don't try to fly, there's a reason people don't want you to do it - you wouldn't be able to fly no matter how certain you are and it would be dangerous to try.
I put it down on paper and then the ghost does not ache so much.
Don't try to calm the storm, calm yourself, the storm will pass.
CPN said to try a referral to Haven but thankfully they said I'm psychotic so won't take me. Not good to be thought psychotic! But I don't want to be patronised at a Haven.
You should definitely not be trying to fly, would you think anyone else should try to fly? I don't think it would work and you would get hurt. What do you think the purpose of trying to fly is? Do you feel ok about continuing with therapy?
I put it down on paper and then the ghost does not ache so much.
Don't try to calm the storm, calm yourself, the storm will pass.
There's nothing wrong with being a human as you are. You are supposed to be a human not an angel and trying to fly wouldn't achieve that anyway. What's the plan for your support going forwards now therapy is paused?
I put it down on paper and then the ghost does not ache so much.
Don't try to calm the storm, calm yourself, the storm will pass.
I've got a bed, going there tomorrow lunchtime. I'm not really accepting at all, trying to think of ways to escape.
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They brought me 2 lots of PRN even though I was lying calmly on my bed. I said I didn't want it and they were like, "it will help you, don't you want to get better and get out of hospital?!" and they wouldn't leave me alone so I agreed to take one of the PRNs.
Last edited by tamobhuuta : 08-08-2024 at 09:17 PM.
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Thanks lr. The staff are ok. I don't think they like me but oh well. The voices/people are sending me messages about the electricity but it's all very confused and I don't know what they want me to do. I'm finding it hard to keep hold of my thoughts and it's stressing me out.
I hope the staff treat you with respect and are there when you need them. If you're confused would it help to talk to someone? How was your night? How are you getting on so far today?
I put it down on paper and then the ghost does not ache so much.
Don't try to calm the storm, calm yourself, the storm will pass.
