why bother?!

[Darkwings44]

today i went out with my mom and she asked me what i wanted to be cremated or buryed she said that its for if she dies then that wont be a extra burden on the rest of my family ........... and all i can think about is her dieing and how i really dont know how to live without my mom
i really want to die with her......... i told before went in my group home that she dies im going to die with and that was being dead serious!!

[Darkwings44]

im going to tell my caseworker about how im really feeling and tell her that i feel like i have no choice but to die because they left me with no copeing skills at all (no one wants to talk to me if i have a issue) and if i try to cope with all of it with self harm or anorexia they wont let me!!!!!

[one_step_closer]

I think it's important to be honest about how you're feeling. Do you get on well with your caseworker? I hope she is supportive.

[Darkwings44]

I tried calling my caseworker about it yesterday and she didn’t call back…….

[one_step_closer]

Hopefully she will get back to you soon.

[Darkwings44]

the other mourning i got yelled at by mrs.T saying that i should kill myself and that i need jesus but even he doesnt want me because im the devil and then she cussed me out l yesterday i wrote a letter to the boss of the company and she still hasnt reponed to me im beginning to think that shes right...... maybe i should off myself cause even if i try to make things better...... things dont change

[one_step_closer]

Mrs T sounds awful and I'm glad you wrote a letter to the boss. She might need some time to get back to you if you only wrote the letter recently. I'm sorry such horrible things are being said to you, it's wrong and they're not true.

[Darkwings44]

im really scared that mrs.T will found out and things will get worse

[Darkwings44]

mrs.T is going to take my stuff again for the weekend for me asking if im allowed to go on dating websites but...... i dont want to feel alone anymore im 32 and all my family seems to have girlfriends or boyfriends...... on holidays i am the only one whos not in a relationship

[Pi.R^2]

I don't see why you should be punished for asking a question. Why do you need her permission to go on dating websites?

Did the person you sent a complaint to get back to you?

[Darkwings44]

i dont know...........

no she didnt......

[Darkwings44]

i found a reason for living!!!!

(my email i sent to my little sister yesterday shes in collage) I trust you and love you so You are the only person who will know my reason for being alive..
I am going to fight pimps and there people to help save women and girls trapped in the chains of trafficking

[moderator note: removed details of this plan due to illegal nature and potentially triggering content]

I’m already thinking about J........ (the prostitute i met at the hospital)

Thank you so much for letting me talk to you about this stuff I really need someone that would be by my side so thank you so much for your understanding bye

[Cacoethes]

You live in the US right?
It's highly likely that these people are gonna have guns

[Iamcatbug]

We cannot condone this behaviour here at all: what you want to do is not only dangerous but illegal.

You follow through with this YOU are going to end up in a lot of trouble. With a lot less freedom than you have now.

[Auror.]

what you're discussing being illegal and dangerous.
sounds like, yet again, you really need to focus on dealing with your own issues and problems.
old post above, know that edits don't get saved and didn't want to be confusing to jenna and any potential future modding


this really seems to be going back to your inability to understand what is appropriate (and legal) and your inability to focus on and deal with your own problems.

think we can all empathize with you and with how difficult your situation must be to have so little control over your own life. but until you can learn how to interact with people appropriately, have a grasp on why certain things are not okay (and illegal and dangerous) to do, and learn to mange and express your emotions in safer ways, then we have the feeling you're going to be stuck in the same situation.

not saying that would be easy. also not saying that your feelings are not valid. but the ways in which you express them and the ideas you get are really inappropriate. most folks have a filter to be able to express themselves in appropriate ways. your inability to do so is holding you back from being able to communicate effectively and get your own needs met.

[nonperson]

No.

This is not a solution to anything.

[Darkwings44]

then what is then!! im getting tried of the cops acting like their protecting the victims when i know cop thats also a pimp himself
maybe this should be a solution because the pimps wouldnt have a chance for a mistrial or a few years in jail only to be doing what he was already doing in the fuckin first place or pay some money to be out on bail!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

SOME ONE GOT TO DO SOMETHING AND NOT SIT AND WATCH THOSE SCUMBAGS HURT WOMEN AND GIRLS LIKE I KNOW THAT THEY DO EVERYDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[Pi.R^2]

Closing while I deal with this thread. Will reopen asap.

[Pi.R^2]

Thread reopened.
Please note that we cannot be discussing/planning illegal activity here and if you have a problem with a post please report it and then if you are unable to respond kindly, it is best to just walk away.

[The Worst Witch]

As someone who has been hurt by these people, I don’t appreciate your assumption that I want my abuser dead. I don’t want him dead becaise that means he then becomes the victim. If my friend were to fight my abuser for me, not only would I lose a friend because they would go to jail or get killed, I lose a feiend and he gets peoples sympathy because someone attacked him.

Two wrongs do not make a right.