Not knowing

[one_step_closer]

I hope they will be flexible. Side effects are annoying.

[tamobhuuta]

I think she put it in the morning because insomnia is a more common side effect. I am really tired today, don't know if it's meds.

[one_step_closer]

Take it easy if you can. Hopefully things will settle soon.

[tamobhuuta]

Mum managed to get me a sooner appointment with the neurologist - in 2 weeks. Staff here don't seem interested in my increased seizure type activity.

[one_step_closer]

I'm glad you at least have your Mum supporting you. Are the staff aware of what is happening?

[tamobhuuta]

Yes. They say they check on me every hour in the night.

[tamobhuuta]

I saw a member of staff get badly attacked by a patient. I don't want to make this about me but I feel bad, like I should have defended the member of staff, they were just metres away.

[Zurg]

I think when something like this happens, it's better to leave it to the people that know what they should do. I do understand the feeling Tamo, but chances are that if you had interrupted it might have escalated things even further. Also, if you don't know how to physically de-escalate a situation, i think things could get dangerous pretty fast so your approach was the most sensible no matter what.

[tamobhuuta]

Thanks Zurg, you're right, I have no experience in de-escalation. I've just never witnessed something like this before.

[Auror.]

that sounds really scary. agree with zurg that you did the right and safest thing by staying out of it. it is your thread and space so you are more than allowed to talk about it if you want.

also sounds really good that you can see a neurologist so soon.

[tamobhuuta]

I feel like, if I forget exactly what happened, I'm doing her wrong.

[Zurg]

It's okay, Tamo. If someone needed you to tell what had happened, they would have asked you soon after. People forget details and stuff pretty fast when they witness something that isn't nice so police and such are pretty fast to get statements if they require them. I'm certain that the word of the staff in question has been deemed as reliable so i don't think you need to try to hold on to the details.

[one_step_closer]

I'm sorry you went through that, Tamo. I too have experienced things like that and it can be very distressing. As has been said I'm glad you didn't intervene though as you could have got hurt. I hope you are ok. We are here if you need to talk things through.

[tamobhuuta]

Thanks guys. Staff told me she is in hospital but ok.

[tamobhuuta]

I thought I was over cutting out the implant. But when Mum suggested the psych might take me off my section today, my first thought was that I could buy blades and do it. But that scared me which I suppose is a good thing?

[one_step_closer]

Thoughts about things you have had for a long time are hard to change and take some time and effort. What are the fears you have about the thought you had?

[tamobhuuta]

I was scared of cutting my neck. I was scared of moving backwards.

[one_step_closer]

I think I would be scared of those things too. Can you focus on some of the better things that will come of coming off section/being back home?

[tamobhuuta]

Being with family
Having my stuff
Eating what I want
Being in charge of my meds
Going to Mass
Meeting our new kitten
Using a razor for legit purposes
Seeing my big sister on Saturdays

[one_step_closer]

That's a lot of good things. Can you feel how good they are?