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Contains abuse - Consent? Adult content - Potentially triggering for S/A
I don’t know if this is appropriate for me to post here or not so please delete if not.
At the weekend I was out celebrating my birthday with a friend and had waaaay too much to drink. Her husband (who was sober) came to pick us up. I know I was very drunk because I do not remember the drive home, I do not remember stopping to get food.
We get home, I’m supposed to be sharing the bed with my friend and her husband agrees to take the couch - this is pretty standard when I have stayed over in the past. However this time is different, he is in the room and we’re all chatting. They start kissing and it starts to turn s*xual and I was watching tv trying to ignore it then he started stroking my leg and he asked me if I wanted to do this with them. I definitely nodded yes but I know I was thinking in my head no. I don’t even know why I said yes.
I wasn’t pressured, but I know this is something I would never do sober. It not even something I have ever thought of doing. I just feel like because I was so drunk even though I said yes, he should have known since he was sober that I wouldn’t normally have agreed to something like this. Like I don’t even remember it all I’m almost sure I passed out.
I don’t even know what I want to gain from posting this. I just feel kind of like I was taken advantage of. But I consented so he didn’t do anything wrong. Sorry I just need to get my thoughts out.
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