Triggering (SI) - just meh...

[RattyGirl]

i told my best friend yesterday that i have been cutting again....usually she just listens to my rants and makes sure im ok.

yesterday though she was different, she told me i need to stop because i cut my legs and my arm/hand and if i didnt she was going to take my snakes from me (she bred them and i helped hatch them so she gave me them as a christmas present) now i feel i cant talk to her about it

now i have no1 to talk to about it because my fiance gets upset if he even sees them my shes my only girl mate because normall girls bitch and backstab and my boy mates are micks mates too and they would tell him. before i had her i just got on with it but i got used to her listening and being there now i have to go back to hiding it from everyone

i also keep thinking to when i tried to jump from my window and mick walked in and keep thinking if i just got on with it and done it i wouldnt be feeling like this

im so pathetic

[HaiThurMiranda]

Confront her that threatening is only making deals worse.

I can so sympathize with the feeling you should have all of this wouldn't be happening, my advice: think about the positive thinks you would have missed as well, and you will continue to have positive things that you really wouldn't want to give up for a few bad things.

Good luck hun -hugs-

[Mistakenly Beautiful]

Just remeber she's trying to help you...

I would always get upset when my friends pulled that on me.
But then I figured out how they were feeling, and just how much I was hurting myself. I found out one of my friends was a cutter, aswell... and we talked about everything, we were really close. Then she tryed to kill herself, and it almost broke my heart. I didn't want that.

And I'm sure your friend doesn't either. Try seeing it from her point of view. Not that I'm saying she's right. You should talk to her, and tell her that she's not making it any better...

[Cazki]

*Cuddles you*Im so sorry things have got worse. Im really sorry that you made more attempts. Your not pathetic at all. I know how you feel though its hard i know but i do think you can get through this. I mean it. Your a wonderful person and deserve so much better than the way you have been struggling. Life will change and get better and you will be happy you just have to give it time. These things always take time. I know that your very capable of fighting through this. This forum wouldnt be the same without you. We all care about you so much, your never on your own, we are all here for you. Your always welcome to pm me. We will support you as much as we can. I hope your ok. Im thinking of you. Please dont do anything serious to hurt yourself. Please please dont give up. Im truly sorry that things have got worse. But you know where i am if you need to talk.

Please take care best wishes Ian xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

[Trucktastic]

You're not pathetic Honeu.

It seems to me that your friend is trying to help you, but in a way that's not actually helping you at the moment. A friend of mine tried to do the same sort of thing a little while ago, and it made me feel worse. I told her I couldn't deal with it as well as everything else, and she wasn't helping.
She took that quite well.

I think you should try and explain to her that you are trying to stop, but blackmail is not going to help you. And loosing something you care about isn't going to help the matter either.
And don't even think about jumping through a window, Love. Nothing is worth that.

Take care

Lozx