Triggering (SI) - Renewed SIing and no-one cares..

[Whispering_Voices]

I've gone eight months this weekend without SIing. Everyone is so proud of me, my dad is as well and he's an unhappy, uncaring **** in his own rights. But the problem is. All my old problems are coming back, they're still there and still hurting me. I've got no-one to turn to cos they all think I'm better and I don't want to dissapoint them, plus dad won't let me have a moped (passed my test yesterday) cos he'll think I'll do something stupid on it. Maybe it's just the paranoia kicking in, my anxiety that's making me worry but all I want to do is lock myself in my bedroom and bleed. Bleed it all away like I used to. It's been pretty easy for a few eeks to cope with it, because I just remind myself of how far I've come but my Multiple Personality Disorder is caving my head and self-esteem apart and I can't talk to anyone about it. They don't know how easy it is to lock yourself away in a dark room and carve holes in your arms, because maybe they don't understand what it's like to see and feel and think what I do. Some one help me please???

[slambrini]

hey. sorry you're having it tough, I wish I could do something more, but I just want you to know I understand, my parents are so proud of me for stopping and I dont want to dissapoint them, but they don't understand that I like SI-ing and im not a danger to myself. No1 but an Si-er can comprehend the enjoyment of SI-ing and bleeding, so it puts us in a very difficult situation.. sorry I can't be more help..

[thingsareslippingagain]

Everyone that ever knew about me, even though it was very few people, think that I stopped three years ago. So I guess i can relate to some extent. People don't realise that its not just a habit you can kick, but something that consumes your entire outlook on life. I know I probably make no sense at all, and i'm sorry I can't be anymore help, But I am always here if you need a friend, or a shoulder, or just someone to PM,

Hope you are feeling a little happier now,

Love Abi xx

[Lora]

I know how you feel, Ive been SI free for 6 months now and I often feel like its all coming back and im the same everyone - friends/family think Im ok now or much better at least and i just cant tell anyone
But 8 months is fantastic, hold on to that dont give up, you can keep going, 8 months shows just how strong you are.
Im here anytime if you want to talk
love lora xxxxx