My Life Is Standing Still

[necrokiller117]

I don't know life is going to go. I'm 19 yrs. old, turning 20 in December. I'm stuck at home and suspended from college for a year. Due to bad grades. I had the option to meet with the college committee, to give me a 2nd chance. I did so, but they denied. Because they believe I can't balance my emotional problems and academics. (I have Depression, mild autism, and Social anxiety disorder.) Didn't help that I went to the hospital twice for suicide and cutting. They told me to gain confidence and reapply next year. I took the summer off from anything. Once it was over, I applied for nearly 20 jobs....none would hire me. I tried jobcore, but they denied me because they believed my depression would be a problem for my learning. I'm still trying to get a job. In the meantime I'm trying to lose 60 lbs to help with my confidence, but I keep failing. I barely get social interaction and I want to meet someone. I've had past girlfriends, but none I truly liked. I don't know what to do. I'm worried about my future. I don't know if I'll make it to 2018.

[Kiks]

Hey there,
Things may not look great right now, and this is much easier said than done but try not to worry too much about "the future". You're so young, you have so much life left to come. Just take each day at a time, try to make one positive change every day - even if it's something really tiny.

Thinking about the future as this big, open space can be really scary, and intimidating. But what I always found helped was the belief that the only way is up. It sounds like your mental health is the main hurdle here, what does your Doctor say about all this? If you can get a hold on your depression and anxiety a little then it will help pretty much every other area of your life fall into place.

It's hard to believe now, but there is hope. You have so much life left to live, so many good days and amazing experiences to come. You will get back into college, I believe in you. Don't give up!

[zachdgotaquestion]

they told you to reapply with confidence would piss me off a bit because they can keep personal opinions to themselves in my opinion maybe they think though that your too hard on yourself. im not gonna be able to help you with a lot of it because im dealing weith some of it too. been diagnosed with depression(though not bad) and shizoaffective. you do sound depressed maybe if you have insurance depression med is an idea.