I can feel it blowing in
It's coming in softly
On the wings of a bomb
There's something in the wind
I can feel it blowing in
It's coming in hotly
And it's coming in strong
Change is a powerful thing
People are powerful beings
Trying to find the power in me to be faithful
Change is a powerful thing
I feel it coming in me
Maybe by the time this song is done
I'll be able
To be honest, capable
Maybe it's enough to just be where we are because
Everytime that we run
We don't know what it's from
Now we finally slow down
We feel close to it
There's a change gonna come
I don't know where or when
But whenever it does
We'll be here for it
There's something in the wind
I can feel it blowing in
It's coming in softly
On the wings of a song
There's something in the water
I can taste it turning sour
It's bitter, I'm coughing
But now it's in my blood
Everytime that we run
We don't know what it's from
Now we finally slow down
We feel close to it
There's a change gonna come
I don't know where or when
But whenever it does
We'll be here for it
Hmmm
Yeah, whenever it does
We'll be here for it
Hmmm
Whenever it does
We'll be here for it
'What came first, the phoenix or the flame?'
'I think the answer is that a circle has no beginning'
In my room there's a king-sized space
Bigger than it used to be
If you want, you can rent that place
Call me an amenity.
Now I'll play your ghost as my ace, whenever I'm led astray.
But I am actually good, can't help it if we're tilted.
I'm in my right place, don't be a downer.
The only thing that keeps me from driving this car
Half-light, jack knife into the canyon at night
Signs and wonders, Perseus aligned with the skull
Slain Medusa, Pegasus alight from us all
Do I care if I survive this, bury the dead where theyre found
In a veil of great surprises I wonder did you love me at all?
The only thing that keeps me from cutting my arm
Cross hatch, warm bath, Holiday Inn after dark
Signs and wonders, water stain writing the wall
Daniels message, blood of the moon on us all
Do I care if I despise this, nothing else matters, I know
In a veil of great disguises, how do I live with your ghost?
Should I tear my eyes out now?
Everything I see returns to you somehow
Should I tear my heart out now?
Everything I feel returns to you somehow
I want to save you from your sorrow
The only reason why I continue at all
Faith in reason, I wasted my life playing dumb
Signs and wonders, sea lion caves in the dark
Blind faith, Gods grace, nothing else left to impart
Do I care if I survive this, bury the dead where theyre found
In a veil of great surprises, hold to my head till I drown
Should I tear my eyes out now, before I see too much?
Should I tear my arms out now, I wanna feel your touch
Should I tear my eyes out now?
Everything I see returns to you somehow
Should I tear my heart out now?
Everything I feel returns to you somehow
When I'm gone, are you gonna miss me? Are you even listening? Do you even care about anything at all?
I found my fickle friend
Out in the alley way
He said, "You don't look so good"
I said, "Hey doc that's great
You started practicing?
I never got the note
So let's shake and trade
And be on our way"
Let's go, go, go
So here we are again
Inside your neon shrine
Sharing a chopping block
Beneath embarrassed light
That tries to hide from us
It tucks itself away
So we both grab hold
And say no you don't
Just stay, just stay
The morning's hot and harsh
My notebook fills itself
The words come thick with sweat
It feels like someone else
Is writing all of this
Someone I just can't believe
When I mop my brow
Set my pen back down
It's still me, still me
And I'm grabbing at a feeling now
That I can't ever name
Some sign post to remind me
How I wanted things this way
And she said, it's pretty
But you hate yourself
I can hear it clear as day
And I say, when I sing like this
It sounds worse than it is
I'm okay, okay
I'm okay, okay
Just stay, just stay
When I'm gone, are you gonna miss me? Are you even listening? Do you even care about anything at all?
However you feel
Whatever it takes
Whenever it's real
Whatever awaits me
Whatever you need
However so slight
Whenever it's real
Whenever it's right
I've been thinking long and hard about the things you said to me
Like a bitter stranger
Now I see the long, the short, the middle and what's in between
I could spit on a stranger (Pull me out)
You're a bitter stranger (Pull me out)
Whatever you feel
Whatever it takes
Whenever it's real
Whatever awaits me
Whatever you need
However so slight
Honey, I'm a prize and you're a catch and we're a perfect match
Like two bitter strangers
Now I see the long and short of it and I can make it last
I could spit on a stranger (Pull me out)
You're a bitter stranger (Pull me out)
I could spit on a stranger (Pull me out)
You're a bitter stranger (Pull me out)
I could spit on a stranger (Pull me out)
You're a bitter stranger (Pull me out)
I see the sunshine in your eyes
I'll try the things you never try
I'll be the one that leaves you high, high, high
When I'm gone, are you gonna miss me? Are you even listening? Do you even care about anything at all?
I'm jealous of the love
Love that was in here
Gone for someone else to share
Oh, I'm jealous of the love
'Cause I wished you the best of
All this world could give
And I told you when you left me
There's nothing to forgive
But I always thought you'd come back, tell me all you found was
Heartbreak and misery
It's hard for me to say, I'm jealous of the way
You're happy without me
As I sink in the sand
Watch you slip through my hands
Oh, as I die here another day, yeah
'Cause all I do is cry behind this smile
I wished you the best of
All this world could give
And I told you when you left me
There's nothing to forgive
But I always thought you'd come back, tell me all you found was
Heartbreak and misery
It's hard for me to say, I'm jealous of the way
You're happy without me
Let us go then you and I, when the evening is spread out against the sky, like a patient etherized upon a table
- T.S. Elliot
I wrote this song
Not for myself
But it was about me
Every song has been about me
And I saw it all
And I fought to tell
As if it was about me
Every dream has been about me
And my love of making everyone my downfall
And if they serve me well it is only by my instructions
I discard everything I know
And everywhere I go
I kiss the lips of creatures
That I barely know and would never touch again
I feel love but it never shows
And walls around me grow
My fingertips are calloused
But I'd never try to scale these walls again
When I'm gone, are you gonna miss me? Are you even listening? Do you even care about anything at all?
Tonight I'm posed and popping like a peacock
I'm pressing flesh, I'm smiling big, my spinning head sings "Stop, just stop"
Cause what used to calm me down
Just rips my life to ribbons now
So I keep smiling, I find my window and quick cut out
These days my hangman's hunger makes my gut kick
My sleeping mind, could map it blind
A flask, a key, a bag, a fifth
I try to will myself away
While shouting habits plead their case
So when the sun sears through my eyes
My beggar's brain can't compromise
I splash cold water, I draw the curtains, I stay inside
And I can't say that it's a sickness, more like a stranger I ask in
And later realize, was a strangler
Slipping nooses in my den
But I was lonely so I asked him, "Would you tie that one on me?"
It wasn't his fault, I was eager, and I was weak
So as I inch towards resolution
Yeah I'm not sure which life feels right
A narrow noose or the wading water
The hanging head, sore open eyes
I know my brother he went one way
And at the fork I heard him say
"Don't you follow, don't go making my mistakes" And I realized what he meant
Don't kill yourself to raise the dead
It never works, you'll only end up joining them
When I'm gone, are you gonna miss me? Are you even listening? Do you even care about anything at all?
I can read your mind and I know your story I see what you're going through, yeah
It's an uphill climb, and I'm feeling sorry
But I know it will come to you, yeah
Don't surrender 'cause you can win In this thing called love
When you want it the most there's no easy way out
When you're ready to go and your heart's left in doubt Don't give up on your faith
Love comes to those who believe it
And that's the way it is
When you question me for a simple answer
I don't know what to say, no
But it's plain to see, if you stick together
You're gonna find a way, yeah
So don't surrender 'cause you can win
In this thing called love
When you want it the most there's no easy way out
When you're ready to go and your heart's left in doubt
Don't give up on your faith
Love comes to those who believe it
And that's the way it is
That's the way it is
When life is empty with no tomorrow
And loneliness starts to call Baby, don't worry, forget your sorrow
'Cause love's gonna conquer it all, all
When you want it the most there's no easy way out
When you're ready to go and your heart's left in doubt Don't give up on your faith
Love comes to those who believe it
And that's the way it is
When you want it the most there's no easy way out
When you're ready to go and your heart's left in doubt Don't give up on your faith
Love comes to those who believe it
And that's the way it is
That's the way it is
(that the way it is)
That's the way it is, babe
(that the way it is)
Don't give up on your faith
Love comes to those who believe it
And that's the way it is.
'Never forget what you are. The rest of the world will not. Wear it like armor, and it can never be used to hurt you.'
['There is only one thing we say to death. Not today'.']
'We are each our own devil, and we make this world our hell. Oscar Wilde
Its hard to dance with the devil on your back. Sydney Carter
Knocking on doors and swallow every key
Knocking on doors and swallow every key, carelessly
What a terrible time we had, do you want it back?
What a terrible time we had, do you want it back, timelessly?
We lived in the smallest world and all of it darkened as we slept
Knew our paces dictated the turn of the moon and the earth And yet we still battled, began to doubt ourselves
I saw a softness in you as you were, so that’s where my claws went
I used to drink off of you, take sips of perspective from things you said
And when we disagreed it would burn, but I still loved to taste it
Then something bittered, something within ourselves
Just as most of the things I deserved, I learned how to waste it
I made you sick where I had meant to make you mine
I found loneliness in a room that you were in
I know it tore you up, it wasn't by design
Do you care that it’s over?
Do you ever trace the lines?
Was it shared?
Are you sober just to show we’re not alike?
Walking home is harder
The pace gets hard to keep when you're in all the windows outlining every street
Do you disappear if I break them or show up in every piece?
We don’t ever speak but I’m holding on, I’m holding on, I’m holding on
Which version of you is the right one - the one from our memories?
The one locking doors that I knock on and swallowing every key?
I don’t want to sleep but it’s coming on, it’s coming on, it’s coming on
Do you care that it’s over?
Do you ever trace the lines?
Was it shared?
Are you sober just to show we’re not alike?
I said I loved you as a way to change the subject, fingers breaking as they crossed.
You said you loved me so you wouldn't have to prove it, with both eyes towards the door.
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On a bench, dark in autumn, you wore the shadow like a dress
Mixing the whiskey with questions, leaving nothing unconfessed
Your body was drawn in the passing headlights, shapes unseen in the rear view mirror
You stumbled onto some honesty and then, pressed on and pulled me near
You said if God exists, would you take back the moments you broke the rules or got ****ed up
Could you find regret in a night like this one - would you wanna be forgiven?
You said if God exists, would you take back the moments you broke the rules or got ****ed up
Could you find regret in a night like this one - would you wanna be forgiven? Are we supposed to be separate?
Are we wrong to try and stay?
If God exists, has it all been worth it or would you wanna be forgiven?
And now that you’re gone and I’m at your headstone, I curse out loud like a bad prayer
We were the only thing you believed in but I let go
If I’m a Christian by December, would you please forgive me, I only meant to find God to pass the time
If you can find me while I’m turning over a new leaf, just know I’m looking for another place to hide
You said if God exists, would you take back the moments you broke the rules or got ****ed up
Could you find regret?
Can you let this go?
Do you have to give in?
When I'm gone, are you gonna miss me? Are you even listening? Do you even care about anything at all?
Oh, pure heart's peer caught me gawking
Your hair in the wind, such small lonesome hands
I think I was meant to keep you warm
It was bigger than me
It was bigger than the sea
And I'm not waving, I'm drowning
I felt your waves calming comely
Lights on as is angles casting sides
Infinity and all watered the moon
It was more than I could care
I felt your waves calming comely
Lights on as is angles casting sides
Infinity and all watered the moon
And I'm not waving, I'm drowning
I felt your weights crushing contours
and I felt cascades ripping right through me
My brightest love sent from tundras
Your arctic touch
My brightest love, it was more than I shared
It was more than you cared
I felt your waves calming comely
Lights on as is angles casting sides
Infinity and all watered the moon
And I'm not waving, I'm drowning
When I'm gone, are you gonna miss me? Are you even listening? Do you even care about anything at all?
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