It's great that you feel so strongly; I don't yet. I know I want to get better, but never feels like such a strong word. I'm not sure what will happen in the future. Now I'm just trying to take things one day at a time. You've got a great attitude. Keep treating yourself right, and good luckies to you.
Empty-armed
and half a soul to go
And all I wanted
was you here next to me
A little sunshine and
sympathy...
~~~Zwan, El Sol
I'm glad you feel that way.
I don't think you can know that you'll never ever do it again because, well, life is random and you never know what can happen to you, but at any rate, hold on to that feeling and let it last as long as it can.
Nah, I really do know I won't, I've some hard times in the past year or so since I stopped and it's never been an option. I think you know for sure when you get to the point where you would have done it, and you just didn't.
this is the first day of my life
I’m glad I didn’t die before I met you
But now I don’t care I could go anywhere with you
And I’d probably be happy
Pround Pulmeria Sis :: Feel free to PM me anytime ::Always happy to help!
i'm not so sure myself been away from it for so long, i'd like to think i'd never go back buttime will tell
You never knew well i never told you...
Everything I know about breaking hearts I learned from you, it's true
I've never done it with the style and grace you have
But I've made long term plans based on these mistakes
i agree i think you do know when you will never go back
i feel the same 4months isn't very long but a lot has happened to me ive lost 2 of the most important people in my life.
And i'm the same as you... i didnt feel the need to hurt myself.
Well done on being so positive
i wish you all the luck in the world
xxx
No, I don't yet. Managed to hold off the urges for nearly three months now, but it's getting increasingly difficult; added with the stress that I've been under, and the suicidal thoughts that have come back over the past few weeks, I think it's only a matter of time before I slip up -_-
I've been through a lot since I recovered, and even though the temptation was there during some of the more emotionally imposing events, I know that I'll never turn back.
It's always good to hear that someone else feels the same way.
I've been free for just over 2 years, I never really got triggered to start with, so that's not an issue, I never really got urges to self harm, just did it on impulse, like a subconscious part of me took over. But yes it is still there. If my life went downhill again then I might do it again. When I was with my ex, I quit. When we split up I started again. For me recovery was about me being happy. It was about having something or someone to distract me, to make my life situation a place worth staying in, to give me meaning in my life.
I sometimes get to wanting to harm again, but I go to matt instead of my blades. I threw away all my blades and I use a non-disposeable razor to shave with so I don't get tempted.
I'm free and I know I am, if i wasn't so determined though...I don't know. When I'm ill (again) and down, I look at the pills I'm taking and know how easy it would be to OD, to sleep undisturbed. I just can't do that to myself anymore.
It is still an option, I'm just determined that it's not going to be one that I take. mand x
Mand, South Wales, Full-time working, single mother to 2 scarily independent girls.
I AM A PROUD PLUMERIA SISTER
I've been free for 6 months, and I'm not sure whether I'll go back. I still get really bad urges and I really struggle sometimes, but all the great stuff outweighs all the rubbish! I know I could do it, often I really want to, but I have amazingly supportive friends and all I have to do is phone them and they talk to me for as long as is necessary so I don't really need it anymore in that sense. Who knows!! I dont want to go back, but SI will always be there I think.
every couple of months i get a really bad urge and i always eventually give in...when those stop coming, then i'll have more faith in stopping for good.
I want to stop, more then anything, but i'm doing it 3-5 times a day, something's gotta give, but i hope, i can be half as great as you! Congratulations on stopping, and not having the urge to come back to it! You're really strong. Hugs.
On a long enough time line, the survival rate for everyone drops to zero.
I think it can be said that someone will not self-harm again. I was addicted to cutting and now, it's gone. I have gone through some hard ass times lately, harder then when i ended up in a psych ward in many respects, but I have not once got close to cutting. I know for a fact that I will not cut again. That doesn't mean the urge still isn't there. It's like an recovered alcoholic driving by a bar, they will think "hey, i used to do that, and it helped at the time" but never once do they think "I need a drink right now or else, i don't even know". Thats how it feels, at least for me at the moment you know you will never go back
I think for me,at least at the moment anyway, self harm is still going to be an option. I have not regularly cut for three years next week but the urges keep coming back and I have had a few slip ups. Unfortunately the thought that I have completely given up self harm forever scares me and I am not sure I have stopped for good. Part of me thinks it is only a matter of time.
I have no intentions of stopping. Saying I have, hiding it better, using other forms that aren't as visible until I'm out of the house, but I'll never stop entirely. I plan on going back to cutting after I leave home. The way I see it its my body to scar, I don't mind my scars, I take care of them, whats the big ****ing deal if I wanna hurt myself eh.
I think it can be said that someone will not self-harm again. I was addicted to cutting and now, it's gone. I have gone through some hard ass times lately, harder then when i ended up in a psych ward in many respects, but I have not once got close to cutting. I know for a fact that I will not cut again. That doesn't mean the urge still isn't there. It's like an recovered alcoholic driving by a bar, they will think "hey, i used to do that, and it helped at the time" but never once do they think "I need a drink right now or else, i don't even know". Thats how it feels, at least for me at the moment you know you will never go back
Its nice to know that some people feel the same =)
this is the first day of my life
I’m glad I didn’t die before I met you
But now I don’t care I could go anywhere with you
And I’d probably be happy
Pround Pulmeria Sis :: Feel free to PM me anytime ::Always happy to help!
i don't know, i find everything regarding selfharm different now.
before, i did it because i tried to convince myself that it somehow helped. it didn't.
maybe i would do it again, but i doubt it. &i mean. that would be because i WANTED to do it. like, i don't know how to explain it fully. but it would be because i just felt like doing it. not for the same reasons i did it two years ago when i did it because i was apparantly depressed & suicidal & whatever.
i consider myself to be "free" from selfharm.
i have done for a very very long time.
