-Sometimes, when i go to hug you...and you turn away. I die a little inside.
- Thank you so much for saying what i needed to hear. I will keep that letter forever. You made me feel appreciated and loved, ive read it so many times since you gave it to me...it makes me cry every time, just to know someone really cares.
~*~Sometimes we put up walls, not to keep people out - but to see who cares enough to break them down ~*~
To the people who have continually broken down my walls, thank you, you are real friends who i will never forget. xxx
I wish you were still here. I need you so much right now, you mean so much to me I don't know why you went, or where or how. I wish you would let me know, i need to know that you don't hate me.
I love you with all my heart, yet I shuold hate you for leaving me, leaving me when i needed you more than anything i have ever need before. I want to be with you I want to hold you hand, to look deep it to your eyes.
I want you to be the first thing i see and smell in the morning and last thing at night.
You are my world and you can't even see it since you left me.
I love you so much, so much it hurts, so much it feels like my chest is going to explode.
If only we could of been together, we would have been amazing, we could have fought the world together, we would have done so much. Instead you left without explanation, leaving me wondering what happened.
I wonder if you are dead. I hope your not, I hope I will see you one day in the future, may be things will be different, may be she will have gone, may be we cuold be together. You could hold me and make everything better, you could kiss away the pain. You would protect me from the world and that hate that is out there and I would do the same for you.
I would do anything to have you back inmy life.
I need you. I want to see you, I want to touch you, I want to smell you and I want to hear your voice. I want to fill all my sense up with you. And never let you go ever again.
You were my rock, but you went when I was unstable and then my world fell apart. And you don't even know how bad I was and am. I was happy, truely happy when i was with you. knowing that i would get to talk to you in the evenings got me through the days.
I want you, I still do and I think I always will. I don't think I will ever be able to let you go. No guy will ever be as good as you.
You made me feel alive, you made me feel pretty, loved and special.
You made the bad things not feel as bad, your greatness opver shone them. When you were in my life I had happy days. happy weeks, happy years. I just wish I could go back to those times, when we were me and you.
I wish there had been an US. maybe ther still can be.
I hope you think of me often and miss me.
I want you back in my life.
I love you so much.
James..........please come back to me.
Last edited by Absi : 31-01-2008 at 11:16 PM.
Reason: errors.
"A woman is like a teabag. You never know how strong she is until she gets into hot water."
OK I'm really really paranoid now
What was that supposed to mean?
Is that what put you off me?
All that time I tried to hide it, I kidded myself that you didn't notice, hating myself all the while
Were you really just so disgusted by me?
Really?
I'm not surprised
I know it's an issue but I CAN'T ****ING HELP IT
Sorry I disgust you and 'turn you off'
The only time you will find real light is when you're searching in the dark..
I hate every inch of you.
You are a fat, manipulative bitch and you have no purpose in my life.
I never want to see your ugly face again, you messed up little ****.
I want to break your face with my fist, might improve your looks a bit.
But don't count on it.
Lilybug Apple loves Loopey Raspberry. I'll be here forever.
01-10-2006
I have a secret... I'm happy. I don't know for how long and its probably not good but... I'm happy. And guess what? It's mainly because I'm away from you. Away from your drama and away from the fights. No more worries of whats going on at home while I'm at work. I love it. I love this new life....
"I have this dream of being whole. Of not going to sleep each night wanting, but still sometimes, when the wind is warm or the crickets sing, I dream of a love that even time will lie down and be still for. I just want someone to love me. I want to be seen."
when i held you yesterday and you fell asleep in my arms
my heartstrings didnt fall asunder
i am so glad you are in my life
i want to be around
so i will stick around and i will be here for you if you ever need me
i love you
Don't be someone else's slogan because you are poetry.
you suck as a best friend and i really wish you'd leave me the hell alone.
*..life in pain.. *-my older sis; Sweetest Downfall-my jellybean; greenspot-my cousin; TokioPanik!-my TokioHotelTwin; darkdestiny-my pet monkey; I-Feel-Infinate-my gerbil; frombullets2black-my llama; livingnotbreathing-my fellow spy; UnsureOne-my pet goldfish; xXxHis_fallen_angelxXx-my pet monkey; ashy_ashy18-my sister; Aryn is my fellow ninja and partner in crime
Apocalyptic and insane, but my dreams will never change
as much as i thought you were differant, it didn't change the fact that you're just like everyone else and you couldn't give a damn if you tried. i really really thought i could trust you, and now i wish i hadn't put my heart as much on the line as i had, and i wish you'd get out of my life.
*..life in pain.. *-my older sis; Sweetest Downfall-my jellybean; greenspot-my cousin; TokioPanik!-my TokioHotelTwin; darkdestiny-my pet monkey; I-Feel-Infinate-my gerbil; frombullets2black-my llama; livingnotbreathing-my fellow spy; UnsureOne-my pet goldfish; xXxHis_fallen_angelxXx-my pet monkey; ashy_ashy18-my sister; Aryn is my fellow ninja and partner in crime
Apocalyptic and insane, but my dreams will never change
I miss the person you used to be. You've turned into a moody cow lately and I feel like barely even know you anymore. You said you'd never leave me. But you have. I relied on you. You were my everything. My rock. I relied on you so much and now you've gone.
22nd November 2018
"Don't suffer in your silence. Know you are never alone."
Are you so full of yourself that you can't see what you're doing? If you don't wanna be my friend anymore, then tell me, and stop treating me like dirt.
You make everything worse for me. I feel like a stranger in my own home, I feel like you wan't me to get the hell out of here. You messed up with me, and now you want me gone, so that you can have another try with my little brother. So that he may turn out better than me. Because you think Im a weirdo, right?
you haven't always been there for me when i needed you, and you handled some things really horribly, but now, after all the fighting and the hating, you're my best friend. maybe i can't tell you everything- far from it- but you're still the person in this world i can talk to about things, and know you won't laugh in my face. if i told, i'd want you to be the one to know.
love ya sis!
*..life in pain.. *-my older sis; Sweetest Downfall-my jellybean; greenspot-my cousin; TokioPanik!-my TokioHotelTwin; darkdestiny-my pet monkey; I-Feel-Infinate-my gerbil; frombullets2black-my llama; livingnotbreathing-my fellow spy; UnsureOne-my pet goldfish; xXxHis_fallen_angelxXx-my pet monkey; ashy_ashy18-my sister; Aryn is my fellow ninja and partner in crime
Apocalyptic and insane, but my dreams will never change