Definitely, there is a lot up in the air about where I go next. The funding for my course has run out too so I'm living off a part-time job and savings which is fine in the short term but I do only have finite resources. There is the possibility of a full time job once I am done but that far from secure right now.
I have a mentor to help with the course side of things and I can see student support through uni. We are working on me using them less though because once I finish I won't have access to them. I am technically still under my local CMHT but I only see the psychiatrist mostly because the support I have through uni is mostly sufficient. Annoyingly I last saw my psychiatrist the week cycling started, she did say I could contact her earlier if I needed my meds reviewed.
I love Orange is the New Black! That sounds like a good idea plus you get a reward for doing!! I know those feelings! When are you back in work? Could you have a "you" day and then do some at the flat another day? Would it help to talk about what is stressing you about your work? - with a friend or colleague if you don't feel able to talk about it here?
that sounds really stressful tiptoes. stress always sets things off for me. firefly working 6 days and only getting one off is sucky too! is that a regular week for you?
Tiptoes perhaps the CMHT will help. Can you get more regular contact with them so it overlaps with your mentor right now? So that when you finish you won't have to start fresh with someone new. Keep going. You can do this!
No it's irregular my working patterns. It's shift work luckily due to my house I don't do night shifts. I work on a mh ward. So it's quite stressful. I just saw occy health today. They just piss me off.
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that's a good idea to overlap the use of services for tiptoes, its always hard starting over with new people.
I used to work shift work, it can be a pain in the ass! I can only imagine how stressful that is working on a mh ward. My last job occy health weren't really bothered about me! Which was super nice!
Mine are monitoring me so closely. It's frustrating. They want me to take time off work but I don't know. I do feel super low and lack motivation. I don't want to be forced to take time off. They've referred me to staff counselling so someone to check in with me regularly until I reach top of the list for psychotherapy at the CMHT.
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I find that sometimes if I don't work it makes the depression worse. You just have to decide whether that would be helpful to you or not. Its not nice to be forced into something. I'm having psychotherapy at the moment, I'm finding it really useful, hope you don't have to wait too long.
I find it is always a tough call when to take time off work it is hard sometimes to work through the pros and cons of all the options. Do you have any holidays that you could use to give you more rest time? I hope the staff counselling in helpful.
It might be worth seeing what the CMHT can offer, last time the only thing they offer was CBT which I have done so many time I think I have got all I can out of it. My psychiatrist did mention psychotherapy last time I saw her but that it is not sensible to think about until life is more stable.
I think it would be hard for me to accept further help, it has only been a year since I was discharged from the EI team. I feel like enough of a failure for only managing 6 months before an CMHT referral went through because things got unmanageable. They gave me the skills to cope, I should be able to manage better than I am.
don't feel bad for needing help. I've been having regular meetings with different services for years! Definitely not something to beat yourself up over. I find it incredibly hard to live with it sometimes, and just need help no matter how many tools I've been given to cope! What is the EI team?
I'm having a rough day today, eagerly awaiting my hubby coming home to take over childcare duties!
Sorry, the early intervention team - they deal with young people with a new diagnosis providing intensive support during the first few years of treatment to reduce relapses and improve coping strategies.
I guess failure isn't quite the right word, it is more that I am frustrated and disappointed that in 6 months I went from being stable enough to be discharged back to my GP to needing a psychiatric assessment. More so if things deteriorated enough to need on going support.
I'm pretty flat today, I'm trying really hard to stay focused and keep procrastination down to my allotted times which I think is starting to pay off.
Sorry you are having a rough day, anything you want to talk about? Do you have long to wait before your hubby gets back?
ah ok! I never had any dealings with an EI, which is why I didn't know what it was!
yeah it sucks that things can change so quickly, but you do have some major stress going on by the sounds of things, so don't be too hard on yourself.
hopefully my hubby is on his way home now. fingers crossed! theres no real reason i'm having such a bad day, but chasing a toddler and 2 dogs can be exhausting even on a good day! I'm just all over the place mood wise at the moment. I see my psychiatrist tomorrow, so will see what he has to say about it all. I find him so intimidating its hard to talk about things. I have a tendancy to go in and say everythings fine! my care co-ordinator has come with me the last few times to speak up for me, but I don't think she'll be there tomorrow so that's a scary thought!
I do the same superhuman thing! My hubby despairs with me at times!
He has just got home, so that's nice.
I think I will write down everything I need to ask him, and maybe pre empt questions he'll ask me, else he asks me something basic and I go blank. honestly I'm useless in there! I really hope he can change the meds I'm on, or at least give me some useful tips. Its all a bit complicated and miserable.
Sorry I haven't been around. I have read your replies. I'm just low on words.
Kija how was your appt?
Tiptoes it's no shame to be referred to mh team despite being just discharged from eis. Please don't worry about it.
Having so much family problems that it's causing me to faint. Well either that or that it's a side effect of lamotragine. Just feel super low. Had to take today and tomorrow off and all I've done is sleep and fain on and off . This is not a life.
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Sorry to hear you are so low firefly. And sorry to hear about the family drama. Anything you want to talk about?
My appointment went better then I imagined! My meds have been changed and I'm back on lithium, which is both good and bad!
That sounds difficult Fire Fly, look after yourself.
I'm glad your appointment went better than you imagined Kija, I hope the good outweighs the bad with the lithium
How are you both doing?
I have seen my GP this week and when I mentioned that I would be moving away in the not too distant future she said she would have a think about what support to suggest once I have moved and check in with the person I see from student support to see what he thinks I would need.
Are you moving far tiptoes? I always found moving tricky, what services are offered seem to change so much area to area.
Lithium is good for my mood, but a bit bad if we want to try for another baby. But the risks outweigh the benefit to me. Which makes me feel guilty for being so unwell. I'm doing ok, feeling incredibly stressed out as I am meeting my brother for the first time in many years. Last time I saw him it was all a bit dramatic and not great. And stress is never good for my mood! Argh!
Not massively far about 100 miles. Yeah they do and at the moment I only know the rough area of the country and not the actual trust I'll come under so it is difficult to know what options I will have.
I hope it is helpful for you. You have no need to feel guilty for being unwell. I'm glad you are doing ok. I can imagine that is stressful I hope you goes better than you anticipate, can you timetable something relaxing and soothing for afterwards to counter the stress?
Tiptoes, that sounds quite far. Is there a reason why so far? Maybe you can meet the team before you get discharged from your old team?
Kija, I hope it helps and like tiptoes has said its not your fault and have no reason to feel guilty for being so unwell. I really hope lithium helps you. Have you been on it before?
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