The millionth thread I know

[Buttons.]

Seriously what the fucking point? Had unexpected psych appointment and they weren't listing to a word about my uncles death nightmares or psychosis ;though did acknowlege all were real)the end (with my crutches) just walked out didn't feel I should have to take this shot

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My typing will be bad from time to time went to bank and opticians and optician said nerve damage to eyes is permanent glasses won't help as my pupils don't react he is referring me to a specialist. Was quite proud of myself for doing those things alone though so there is some positive.

[Uglyducklin]

You should be proud of yourself. I hope today isn't too stressful and difficult . Thinking of you . Xx

[Wonderland.]

First off well done on going to the opticians and bank alone. I know things like that can be super difficult when anxiety is bad, or you are feeling low + your mobility issues onto of that. So high five

I'm sorry to hear that you didn't feel listened to in your psych appointment. Would it help to write down the issues they just brushed aside and how they affect you. And maybe you can show them.

I hope you can have an OT assessment soon, so you know more where you stand with things. And how annoying about the PIP letter, they really don't understand how stressful the whole process is.

[Buttons.]

My uncle died and today was the funeral and I couldn't go. Feel shit.

[Wonderland.]

Oh darling, massive hugs <3

Do you feel as though you could reach out for support if you start feeling the need to harm?

I would say right now, given all you have got going on and this on top to expect things to be difficult emotionally. You have got some big life changes to get used to, and the death of a loved one to sink in. Please try and be patient with yourself.

All the love <3

[Uglyducklin]

Gentle hugs ! I'm sorry I can't offer more xx

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Thankyou all for your kind words. It means a lot. I couldn't physically get to the support centre because my wheel chair is shit and I can only walk so far with crutches but a homeless guy who I sometimes give a burger to and share a cig and a chat with to see how he is doing spotted me crying in town and basically dragged me to the ymca where there was a lady to chat to and she was actually really helpful so at least didn't self harm yesterday even though was on way to pick up tools x

[Buttons.]

I just feel so alone. Can't rely on rest of family as they're dealing with same thing but I just I even called the Samaritans and line was busy feels like a sign. The funeral was only yesterday how do people expect me to deal with that especially as I couldn't go and pretty sure my abuser got to.

[Buttons.]

Yeh my abuser went. I just feel so fucking angry. Plus my dad told me he was totally inappropriate actually fucking grinning as my other uncle was laid to rest. I just fuck what did I do to deserve this????

[Rodolphus]

You didn't do anything to deserve any of this, love. I know everything probably feels completely out of your control right now and it's incredible unfair, but it won't always be this way and it won't always be this hard.

I'm so sorry about your uncle. Can you do something special for your own way to say goodbye? You could plant a flower or tree, paint some pebbles for a memory spot in your house/garden, make a scrapbook or playlist of songs that remind you of him.

[Buttons.]

I have the song he had played at his funeral photosynthesis by frank turner just not ready to listen properly yet have heard most of it but I don't like crying like the other suggestions though x

[Wonderland.]

It's quite normal to find listening to a loved ones funeral song(s) very difficult especially not long after. They tend to be chosen for there lyrics, or because it was a fav song of the loved one. And because of that they are so they are much more meaningful to you, they evoke emotions.

I find it very difficult to listen to the ones at my dads. And my grandads even though that was years back now.

I like the idea of the pebbles because they won't be ruined by weather. We did do a bush type thing for Frankie but had a really bad winter and it died unfortunately. So that is the downside of planting something. I did a scrapbook of Frankie and that was therapeutic, especially as I could add to it little by little. I'm going to do one of dad when I feel a bit better.

I hope you are doing okay today.

[Wonderland.]

Thinking of you lovely <3

*gentle squishes*

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In hospital liver screwed white count dangerously low just updating xx

[Wonderland.]

I only just clicked a few minutes ago what you meant by posting on your thread lovely! Silly brain.

Katy is rather unwell and needs a lot of love right now to keep her spirits up at this very scary time <3

Love you kiddo *mahoosive but gentle hugs*
When my brain decides to work better I'll post something more constructive.

[Bear]

I'm thinking of you chicken x

[[Luna]]

Thinking of you Katy, I'm sorry you're so poorly.
Sending tons of love <3 <3 <3

[whirlpools]

Oh Katy, you poor thing. Really hoping you feel better soon, sending lots of good thoughts and love.

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My count came up quite quickly have been discharged