I think you have made a brave step forward by writing the letter. If you can give it to your doc it would be so good. You would be able to get the help that you need.
No I can't think the letter will put you in hospital.
Take care
I don't know what the 'professionals' will make of the letter... I thought they were supposed to put you in hospital if you were clearly a serious danger to yourself or others, and it seems obvious to me that you are, but you were before too and they didn't listen, so I don't know.
I wanted to say how impressed I am by your letter-- it's very clear and articulate, and you do a wonderful job of communicating stuff that is very complicated and hard to put into words, without being accusatory or blaming. To me, the effort you put into that letter really shows how much you want to get better and get away from the influences of your 'brain' part, and that you are not trying to play games with or manipulate the providers. I hope that the letter winds up in the hands of someone smart and compassionate who can get you the help you need and want. It's smart that you're choosing the safer option today, even with choices that don't seem great. I hope you do manage to stay safe today, and that help comes soon. I'm sorry you're struggling with these awful and scary things. I know what you mean about feeling like you have to do stuff willingly because if not the bad part will take over and do it (or worse), which is terrifying. Good luck.
Hi, I'm afraid I don't really have any good advice or anything but wanted to say that I'm sorry you've been treated so badly, I think it was really brave of you to write that letter and I hope you post it.
I hope someone listens to you and you get the help you deserve.
popcorn, I also thought the same about people being in hospital, but people only seem to get put in hospital here after they have done something. Thank you also for what you have said.
Thanks for replying battlekitten, it does mean a lot :)
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I'm very scared about sending that letter. I'm terrified of hospital. I feel really rough now I'm home, but on the plus side I had a really nice wander around town. Mum came back from town so I dragged her back with me, and it was nice and quiet too, so it was nice to somewhat forget for a while :)
I also just want to say that I know this name is not recognised around here, but I really do try to help people on this forum with my main name. Please don't think I'm going to run off after this thread, it's just this is the only one I feel safe asking for help on, that's all.
Im really, really proud of you for writing that letter. You are so clear and eloquent, I really hope you can give this to your doctor, I think it would really really help them to understand and hopefully get you some help. I am so so impressed, I wish I could write as well as you, its amazing, it really is.
I had another thought while I was reading it, you said you are scared of the CMHT (which I understand) and that when you are with them you are worrying the whole time. That is going to be made worse with them being in your house, would that be made easier if you went to see them in their base?
Thanks craola. It would be easier to go elsewhere because then I could leave, but the only time they assess at their base is for admitting into hospital, because that is where their base is. The mearest thought of going there panics me.
Heya, I just wanted to send some cuddles and love, Im in east anglia as well, and I know the MH services here, like a lot of other places are in dire straights (words of my GP!!)
Please take care, its great you wrote that letter, please PM me anytime ok xx
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I think we might actually share the same CMHT Marie, we have talked a bit under my other name, and yes, I agree with that totally. It sucks.
Rowie, of course I don't mind you replying. He suggested that to you because you were very close to the other county, I'm not, and I'm too scared to go, to be honest. I sent you a text today, I hope you got it and I haven't offended you or annoyed you or anything.
I really, really, really think you should send it, how about sending the letter through the post and asking him to contact you or you go when you next feel comfortable. That way you are the one in control. Ok, so away from the home is good, in the hospital is bad, how about a neutral place, your GP surgery or another part of the hospital that you dont associate with being admitted. They will co-operate with you, they'll want to help you.
Hey Terrified, I am amazed that when your feeling so rough you have had the time, effort and inclination to write such an articulate and sincere letter. I have the good luck to live in Bournemouth in the south where I have a wonderful support system but I think it is so unfair that people get MH support based on where they live, everyone should get the same level of help.
I work for the Citizens Advice Bureau and we are looking at this problem as a social policy issue, and one to speak to the government about. Anyway, I'm waffling!
What I want to say really is good luck with sending the letter, I truly believe that if you have the courage to send it and it is received by the right person then it will get you some help.
My PM box is always open and my MSN is marypursey@yahoo.co.uk if you wanna talk I'm here.
All my love, hugs and best wishes
Mary
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P.S. One piece of advice I can give you is ring the CMHT before you send the letter and ask who the best person is to send the letter to (you dont need to even give your name). That way it won't end up sitting on the wrong persons desk and you might get the help that bit sooner.
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Sorry to intrude, im so pleased you're close, it makes things easier :)
I've been told I need DBT as well, im in Surrey and its not available here either. How sucky can the NHS be *rolls eyes*
Hey Terrified, are you with Wickham Market CMHT?? by any chance?
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Eeyore, that piece of advice at the bottom is genius! Thank you, if I get the courage to do it, I'll do that. I might even do that even if I'm still scared because if I get a brave moment I can just do it. thank you for the reply and the offer.
Rowie, I never got a reply, I've not heard anything since this stupid assessment. I was at the nurse on Friday for the dreaded smear (to which she says I need a referral to gynae, so I said thanks but no thanks) aand there has apparently been some sort of correspondance, but not with me. I'm glad I haven't offended you or anything like that :) I do know there is DBT in Cambridge which was mentioned to me before I was sectioned but after that it was never mentioned again. I would even be willing to travel that far.
craola, you are not intruding, but I'm so sorry that you can't get what you need. It sucks. (and yes, Rowie lives about 5 mins away from me).
No I'm not Marie, lol, so apparently we don't have the same CMHT, but I know that those who sectioned me came from where you live (from what you have told me in previous PMs), so I thought it might be the same, apparently not. Sorry.
Thats ok, they prolly came from St Clements cos its the main base for MH teams, I think.. Could you tell me your old name, cos I am really feeling weird cos you seem to know me, but I dont know you :/ If you dont wanna say here, maybe PM me.. Im a bit curious, and paranoid. (silly I know)
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Rowie, that was my diagnosis, but St. Clements decided there was nothing wrong with me. I was followed day and night and they managed to miss the scratching I did, fall for my lies and also miss a chronic panic attack, lol, they didn't pay much attention. They are certainly not useful.
Trust me Rowie and Terrified, St. Clements were really horrid to me as well.. some of their words were ... 'what possibly could be so wrong in your life, your only 17, why are you wasting your time in this place' and 'some people in here are actually ill....'
^ I was crying for hours after that, and couldnt settle.. so they sedated me *****ers*
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