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Help and support for self harm.
I have just joined this group in desperation. I self harm. I can't help it. I keep getting told off by my husband each time he sees the scratches and this makes it worse. How did it all start? I'm 50 years old. Not any support groups about for older people, it's always assumed its younger people who go through this. But it's not.
It started 7 years ago when my next door neighbours drove me to a nervous breakdown and put me into hospital with their constant loud music which could be heard a quarter of a mile away. I still can't listen to loud music.
I used to grip my arms and hug myself and this led on to my self harm. Arms, legs, stomach, what ever item I could get my hands on to, to relieve the stress of the noise. Sometimes I would blackout, my body would just shut down and eventually I would come round. Severe depression, anxiety and panic attacks.
We had to move, get away from it, to a detached place away from people. I can't get away from the self harm though. Just little disagreements with my daughter, frustration with being left to cope with clearing up, housework, while others do what they like, while I am struggling to do a degree. Having to do something I don't want to do, it all leads to the same thing. Sometimes I just want to rip myself to pieces. Part of it is hate for myself having to do what I don't want to do, and some of it is to relieve the anxiety I am going through. I want help but can find none. My self harm is getting worse, my husband keeps telling me off about it and I stress when he sees what I have done. I just don't know what to do. Any advice would be most welcome.
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