Say here what you can't say to someone/Get something off your chest-new rules post 1

[chinahorse]

Me again.

Beyond nervous at the thought of therapy for the first time in months tomorrow. Not sure I trust anyone.

[Foxtrot Oscar]

You need to think about what you say and how it affects other people.

[Pi.R^2]

I know I said I wouldn't post here.

I want to tell you that she died. I feel like you should know, as the person in charge of the group. But I don't know how to say it and if, as I suspect, she killed herself I'm scared that you'll tell me it's my fault like you did when C tried to kill herself. I know that's illogical because that was years ago and in fact the whole group was years ago so it would be ridiculous to suggest that T could have got the idea from me then and did it several years later. But still.

Also sorry I haven't told anyone about this. I hadn't seen her for years so I have no right to grieve or whatever and also I don't want to talk about it anyway.

[d.rocky]

Im falling again. I don't understand any of this. All I want to do is runaway and be forgotten.

[Moonlight Princess]

How dare I think about that when there are people in actual pain. Run don't die. Run then. They can't keep you, you're not a child. You're a liar Kiran.
A fucking liar.

[planemo]

It's been 1 month and you haven't replied. I just hope you're okay, that's all.

[Anony_mousey]

Okay this is really hard to say but...

All the words I can't talk to people about are being spelt out in scars. I want to stop but its so addictive :'(

[Bellatrix]

D - Please reply. Don't do this to me again.

M -Fuck off. You dare ruin NY for me and I will end you. I don't know how but I will fight you with all my might.

B - Please change. Please go back to how you were I can' stand you as you are.

M Again - And no, purging is not going to happen. Nor is cutting. Nor is overdosing. So Stop telling me to. Stop threatening me. You're an evil man, evil. I don't trust you, I'm not going to be afraid of you next week. I'm having a week off. It's mine. I'll be in NYC with beautiful people and you will NOT take that away from me. Say what you want. I will take that week as my own.

[Epicene]

The more you support me and try and contain me, the sadder and more worried I am that I'm going to let you down.

[[Luna]]

C - when I saw you it brought up all the anger and hatred I feel towards you. You can't even look at me. Are you ashamed for how you treated me? Do you feel anything? You told the most despicable lies about me. You made me feel worthless and afraid. You messed with my head. I hate you.

P - I'm sorry I ruined our night out. I was trying to drown out the fact I was sat across the room from my abusive ex-boyfriend and that my friend was talking about people who raped me. I couldn't cope and I shouldn't have dragged you into it.

D - I'm not sure I can do this anymore. It's too much pain with little progress. It's okay to give up now. You've done so much for me the last 6 years. It's okay to let go, it'll hurt but I'll understand.

[Moonlight Princess]

I had written to you. I want to tell you all so much.

[Bellatrix]

- Please do.

d - guess you've done it again. sent a second email. nothing. No surprise

E - please give me a hug. I really need it

R - you can fight this. You can win this battle. I believe in you. Don't let the feelings of doubt pull you down.You're in control.You make the choices. And you're going to be wonderful and help lots of people.

[Iamcatbug]

I've hated you for two years now. It was justified, you are a horrible person and you can't destroy me.

[Epicene]

It's a sign I am evil. I don't know how to say it out loud but it's making me want to SH in a very specific way and it's making me think harm minimization would be a sensible thing. Which it isn't, really.

[Bellatrix]

J- thank you for holding me when I was scared. You make me feel safe. and I love you.

D - I'm going to text you. To see if you'll reply to that.
EDIT. So you replied. You did get my emails.. You just didn't bother to reply.

[[Luna]]

I feel like I've let you down. I'm sorry. I wish I knew the right things to say to make things feel better for you. You're such an amazing friend to me and I'm such a crappy one back. I'll keep trying harder. I'm sorry and I love you loads.

[MunchBox]

I'm sorry I'm a disappointment and a failure.

[Field Of Paper Flowers]

I wish we were still friends. I really miss you. :(

[Chocolate Fireguard]

You unintentionally made me feel like a really nasty human being just now.
I wish I'd never done that stupid horrible anxiety provoking first aid course. I don't even remember any of it anyway. & I'll be fanned if I've got the confidence to use it.

[Ardea]

What if my best is never good enough?