There's something strange going on

Anony_mousey · 02-05-2015, 03:38 PM

So I reached a stage where i was cutting multiple times a day then suddenly I went a whole day without doing it because I was super tired. Since then I have been exhausted every day when I get home, so much that I don't have time to cut. I know this should be a good thing but I don't understand what's happening. For example I slept 11 hours last night and woke up exhausted. I'm still kinda sleepy now. I know this isn't specifically related to self harm but I'm wondering if it could be the stress from self harming that's making me so tired. I'm worried that as soon as I stop being exhausted every day I'll be straight back to where I was. Anyone else experienced anything like this it's just so weird?

Charmed · 02-05-2015, 07:34 PM

Hi there,

I'm sorry to hear you are struggling at the moment. But I am glad your self harm seems to be reducing a little. I'm not sure I can be much help as I don't have all that much experience with this. But I have found that if I am really tired my self harm is reduced. I also strongly believe that if you are sleeping for long periods and are tired it generally means you need the sleep.

Have you been having trouble sleeping before? Do you think perhaps you also might be needing the sleep? It might also help to try and help improve your sleep hygiene to help you have a better nights sleep so you are less tired. Perhaps setting a routine to sleep and when to wake etc.

Do you have any support for the self harm at the moment? It might help to also try and reach out to someone if you don't have support.

Take care.

Anony_mousey · 04-05-2015, 05:48 PM

Damn, the one day I'm wide awake I burned myself. Geuss I'm not as close to recovery as I thought ��. Also I have told 2 of my friends but there not really a support network as one told me if this is what I need to do keep it up and the other one I just don't feel comfortable talking to about it anymore. Also my mum knows and she doesn't approve so now I need to pretend I have stopped, which is rubbish. Thanks for replying anyway

Charmed · 04-05-2015, 07:14 PM

Hi there,

Sorry to hear you self harmed while feeling so awake. It sounds like the exhaustion keeps you from self harming. Do you think you could use distractions in a similar way? You could either make yourself tired, for example a form of exercise. Or you can use lots of different distractions to keep yourself from harming. The 10 minute challenge is quite good for this; when you have the urge to self harm try waiting 10 minutes, assess your urge then another 10 minutes etc. until the urge has passed.

I'm glad you have reached out to a few of your friends, but sorry to hear they weren't that helpful. It's not surprising your mum doesn't approve, but it is only because she cares about you and wouldn't wish you to harm yourself. Would you be able to talk to her about how difficult you are finding everything?

Anony_mousey · 11-05-2015, 08:53 PM

The 10 minute thing doesn't work, my urge just waits till I let my guard down and I'm doing it. I've not got any coping methods left to use (I've explained this more in another thread).

The thing is my mum has always hated self harm, long before I started. So knowing I do it drove a wedge between us and she's only just started talking to me like she used to. I don't want to cause more damage to our recently fixed relationship.

Thank you for your help anyway