health issues causing mind issues

[TrAsHdOll]

Hi, I am currently waiting for test results to find out if I have a hereditary heart condition. To be honest I'm terrified. My mum and all her siblings her it but none of them will talk honestly to Me about it. I'm scared that if I do have it I might have passed it to my son. The worry is making me aggressive and short tempered to my partner. And the stress is making my head start thinking of ways to make it stop. I haven't Sh in 4 years and I don't know how to stop myself going back. I just need someone tell me to sort my head out

[tiptoes]

I hope that you get your test results back soon.

It's nature to be terrified, does your partner understand where this short temperness is coming from, can you talk to him about this? You have done fantastically not SH for 4 years, can you call upon some of the things that have helped you stay free for the last few years? I don't know whether this would help or not but when I have things that I am stressing or worrying about I find it helpful to give myself a set time a day to worry about them and then the rest of the time I try to distract myself from the thoughts. I find it useful as it gives the thoughts time and space but allows me to get on with the rest of my day a little easier and just stops the internal pressure building so much.

[TrAsHdOll]

I think he understands but I know it's hard for him
I have a very sharp tongue sometimes. It's really scaring me because I thought I was better and now I can feel it like a balloon being inflated in my chest and I can't stand the pressure from it. I don't want to tell my fella about these feelings because I know he has enough to deal with while I wait for my results