Over the past couple of years I have been thinking about self harm a lot.
Sometimes cutting, sometimes burning...I just think about it and I'm not sure why, except for when I get upset. Same goes for suicidal thoughts. Sometimes I feel like I want to do it just to do it...which kind of scares me.
Maybe it's partially about attention; I do feel like if I did start people would see and I would get more help but I know that's not a great thing. I do know that when my self esteem is really low and I get upset it's definitely something I think about in terms of punishment and emotional release.
I'm not really sure what to do
I'm happy that I've been able to be strong this long and I plan on going to counseling, but some days even certain advice doesn't seem to help much. It kinda sucks thinking about how this is something I will probably just have to deal with for the rest of my life, along with my depression/anxiety.
