Guys, I appreciate all your advice and support, but there's a reason I'm not taking it. Y'see, the massive collateral damage has already been done, and it's too late to try and fix it. I'm going to die by my own hands by 2018, and there's no point in beating a dead horse. I've already made my decision, and my decision is final.
I believe there's always other options than suicide, but I can understand that it can be hard to see at times.
This makes me wonder though what makes you feel like you want to communicate this to us. How would you like people to react to this?
Given this is a support site people will want to support you. But as you say you don't want any I wonder how we can be helpful?
Suicide can feel inevitable, but it never really is.
I know it has been mentioned before in your past threads, but is this site really that helpful for you? It's not that I'm telling you that you don't deserve to be on this site, it is just that like Banrion said, this is a support site and you are very resistant to any help and support.
Which brings up the question what exactly do you want to gain from this site?
It seems counter intuitive that you are posting on a forum dedicated to recovery (it's in the title) but you're stating you don't want the advice.
So either you
a) want something else, such as to be heard and validated that you're in pain or
b) do have a small bit of hope left that things can change and by making threads that bit of hope is trying to get out
c) just saying things but not really wanting replies, in which case you're best to use the Ranting and Venting portion of this site where you can post and people can hug your thread but cannot reply, so won't reply with advice or suggestions.
I know it has been mentioned before in your past threads, but is this site really that helpful for you? It's not that I'm telling you that you don't deserve to be on this site, it is just that like Banrion said, this is a support site and you are very resistant to any help and support.
Which brings up the question what exactly do you want to gain from this site?
What I want to gain from this site is that I wanna be able to talk about stuff that's a little bit on the racy side and have it embraced. It's not possible for me to recover, unfortunately.
I'm not sure it's the right forum for that kind of thing.
Maybe you can try finding a site that focuses on your fetish as that would be a good way of meeting people with similar interests.
Why come to a recovery forum if you don't want support? Yet make support threads?!
I'm not looking for "support", I'm trying to tell you guys that there's no way I can recover from the massive damage that has been caused, and that I have no choice but to give up and kill myself.
But you also said you want somewhere that will embrace your racy side. Which, given that this is a recovery site is not the place for those sorts of posts. You may unintentionally trigger people.
I think we all accept now that you don't want support. but I think you do need to realise that maybe what you are looking for from this site is not going to happen given the whole purpose of the site.
I'm not looking for "support", I'm trying to tell you guys that there's no way I can recover from the massive damage that has been caused, and that I have no choice but to give up and kill myself.
Why do you feel the need to tell us about this unfortunate decision of yours? If that is actually what you intend to do, and you do not want any support or advice, then why are you repeating yourself over and over? It's like you are a living billboard advocating suicide. I wish you would change your mind, but if all you're here for is to discuss "racy" issues before you commit the "inevitable," perhaps a different site would be better suited to your needs and desires.
I defended you on your first "support" thread, but now I must say enough is enough. There are a lot of people here trying to recover and heal. You are causing a few unnecessary distress; please don't be surprised that I now defend them. We cannot help you if you are unwilling to receive help. I'm sure many here would have been happy to just lend a listening ear, but telling us the date of your plans and bragging about your logic is inexcusable. Please have some compassion for those trying to stay alive.
Please do not make suicide threats or 'goodbye notes'. While this might seem harsh, suicide threats are extremely unfair on a website full of caring people who have no way of helping you, no way of knowing you're safe and no way of letting anyone know. Of course, people will express their doubts about life and living, but goodbye threats cannot be permitted; it is much more beneficial to ask for support before you get to that stage, since a true 'goodbye note' wouldn't be looking for response anyway. This also applies to any threats made regarding any way to harm oneself.
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Nobody on here will “beg“ you to not kill yourself.
Several members have by now stated that they wished things were different for you, but we are aware of the fact that at the end of the day you are the only one who can make that decision for yourself.
If you want to be left alone then I don't understand why you post on here.
You don't need to make threads or could use RV board as it doesn't allow replies. This has also been suggested by Aimee, but instead of taking it on board you keep posting in a way that provokes people into replying. I can only conclude that you actually do want the replies.
Because I want people to leave me alone and quit begging me not to shoot myself. It's ****ing annoying as ****!!!
If anything does happen to you, it's not going to affect any of our lives in any way whatsoever. It's not like we're saying 'things can get better' for our own benefit.
It's your choice whether you want to shoot yourself or not, but if you want people to leave you alone and stop supporting you, then posting multiple times on a mental health support site is probably not the best way to go about that.
How about you try and read through the rules and the first page again and try and understand it properly before posting.
I'm fine! Totally fine. I don't know why it's coming out all loud and squeaky, 'cause really, I'm fine!
If anything does happen to you, it's not going to affect any of our lives in any way whatsoever. It's not like we're saying 'things can get better' for our own benefit.
It's your choice whether you want to shoot yourself or not, but if you want people to leave you alone and stop supporting you, then posting multiple times on a mental health support site is probably not the best way to go about that.
How about you try and read through the rules and the first page again and try and understand it properly before posting.
^ this.
Avery - I really don't understand what exactly your intentions are when posting here, given that you don't want support and are set on ending your life? Perhaps you could explain. I really can't help but think that you are enjoying provoking and upsetting others on here, as you are continuing to post these threads despite being told it's inappropriate.
As has been said, if you want to discuss fettish subjects, here is not the place. Similarly if you want to discuss pro-suicide subjects then you need to look elsewhere on the net.
We're all architects of our own private hell
No-one can hurt us like we hurt ourselves...
I'm sorry if this is gonna be a long speech but I really would like people to read this and get some understanding on what I'm trying to say. You dont have to read it any of u if u dont eant to but it would be good to get atleast someone to have a flick through or read.
Here is what I wanna say to u all on RYL
AeryGamerDude, I think u need to try and listen some of the useful points people are trying to say to u on here. There needs to be a way forward for us all to come to an conclusion and see whats best for AveryGamerDude.
I agree with the point who suggested to try and understand what he's going through right now with hope of him to feel a little better each day even if he can't see himself to feel better but it's a start. All of us on here have once experienced sucidal thoughts and tried to vomit suicide so I dont see why it would be any different for AveryGamerDude? I don't mean what he said about comiting sucide is right as I dont condone that behaviour at all and I know no one on here would but I think we need to put ourselves in his shoes and see wether we wanna have the will to live. Also I don't agree with the points who suggested about him joining another site. Everyone is entilled to use this site no matter what age, gender, race or religion they are. All the moderators would agree with me there so to get him not coming on the site anymore is just wrong.
I'm not trying to have a go to those people what said it and I can understand why u think that but at the end of the day people have come on this support site for a reason and as someoneelse just said the clue is in the name. We all need to help each other out and if that may take a bit of persuading or incouragment then so be it! RYL will never go forever and willcontinue supporting the people who really need it. It's a good thing that AveryGamerDude is on this site as if he werent he would have absolutely no hope from other people. Even said he has never really got on with most people so the least thing we can do is not try and have a go at him but be honest and consecutive.
I think we all need to read the RYL rules as some of these are being breached with not looking at the fact this is aganist the rules on RYL. I'm sure when everyone went to sign up on here before that knew that inappropriate behaviour, bullying, racism remarks, sexual discrimination and swearing weren't allowed on RYL. I just want everyone to be aware for now on that these sort of behaviours can not go on through this site. What kind of example is this when other members are joining up and are seeing people showing no remorse for others. Have some respect!!! None of u would like it if everyone was giving u a hard time. I'm not just saying people on this forum but everyone else!
Just be aware what u say on here as the moderators can see everything posted so if u have nothing nice to say don't say anything at all. I dont want u to think any of u that u can't show that ur angry cuz of the hurtful comments whats been said. I'm glad that ur not only saying what u think is the matter but ur saying what is the matter or issue other people have got with him. I can understand that completely! You can say what u honesty want to say. Good to know that ur looking at for each other.
There's no need to pick sides either. I'm not trying to say some of u are picking sides but it seemed like that before. I know there were a couple of people what were not nice who commented on AveryGamerDude posts before and I saw it. You will get found it if u say anything else in that kind of way again. I'm only just warning u.
It has to be said for me two! I know I have done wrong and I'm sorry for the people I have upset on here but I have learnt now not to post triggering thoughts I feel to those who it will effect. I'm sorry to the people that I have hurt. I really am and I understand if u still feel hurt but I never ment it.
Dont want to go off the point right now but one thing I wanna say is that I'm glad to hear AveryGamerDude is sticking up for himself cuz I can understand why he wants to be heard as others are not letting him try and explain. Of course were gonna get people disagreeing on here with it causing an argument of some sort but if we obey the rules and try and get along if we have to agree to disagree then I don't see the problem.
Remember we all need to support each other and no matter how bad it is for anyone going through sucide right now we can all say at some point we have all been through it ourselfs. I dont want no one to give up to support AveryGamerDude we actually wanna incourage more and more people to ask for maybe some of advice or just want to be listened to. I think AveryGamerDude just wants others to listen to him and judge and ok we may feel that his opinion to his answers arnt good but we need to think about the individual and what he wants. It's clear he don't want no advice or anyone to get him to do anything he don't wanna do but people who have gone through the same thing.
Just think about when u felt at ur lowest and what u wanted people to say or hear on how u were feeling. This is just what AveryGamerDude wants two so I said from the previous question, why should that be any different? I don't see why it would be but again u may be looking on at the fact he is upsetting others on here who is promoting users on the site to do the same by committing sucide. I agree completely with all the comments said about its upsetting people. I think thats very wrong for him to do that and he needs to be aware of it in the future. I'm not sure if he should get reported for this or not but again that's up to what the moderators do.
Please people don't give up hope for him. Just wants to be accepted and know that he's not on his own but we all need to try and work togethet and support each other on the site. This is what everyone is here for. Just recieved some advice to take away and act on and if not get others to listen to what we have to say. Aslong as were helping each other in some way then thats all what matters.
Also @AveryGamerDude. I dont like how u been speaking to other people on here who been very supportive and have tried to help. I see a few girls have helped u and tried there best by giving u some support in some way and what ur saying to them is wrong and not worth listening to its like u don't wanna hear the genders opinions. I'm sorry to be harsh but that's what it's coming across and I do hope u can look back on these comments at some point if u could and see what u said to the girls like myself on the site. Also AveryGamerDude, think about this. Eventough u want to comit sucide right now and ur not in a good place cuz nothing has helped and u tried everything, can u tell me if u want to answer this question why u are still here?
Again I dont mean it for u not to be here. Of course not! I just put it the wrong way as it was suppose to come out but why are u still here? Please can u think of a time when someone in ur family ended up dieing and u got upset about it when they past away, how did it make u feel? Did u try and do anything in ur power to have one last day with them? I'm saying this because this is exactly what others are coming from. I know u can't see it right now and u Mau disagree but u have to note the fact what everyone has tried to say to u all along.
I'm only trying to be fair so please don't take it personally or for anyone else for that matter. Just want to give some consuctive feedback as I always do. It's never too harsh and its never to nice. I have to say, there have been others on here what have done just the same so I thank you to those what have tried to be nice and constructive. Good to know we have members on here who are very down to earth.
So if anyone has got anything to say about my post what I just messaged on here then feel free to message me back on here for further comments regarding to support AveryGamerDude. I would appreciate it.
