Could do with some help tonight

ennae · 24-09-2014, 01:55 PM

Might be triggering.

I just got my stitches removed and I asked them to cover it all up and some other cuts that weren't bad or anything because I thought if I couldn't see them then I wouldn't cut. I still want to but peeling back the covering but I won't. I can't. Once I start I just keep going over and over. The nurse was nice at least. I see my psych next week which I know isn't long but it feels like it is. Why do pyschs always go away when I'm on holidays? When I have all this time to think and stress and be bad. Supposed to be cleaning bc my brother is coming to visit tomorrow which is good but I wanted things to be nice and it isn't. It won't be.

ennae · 24-09-2014, 02:34 PM

Going to bed. I just spent time distracting myself on here :)

-broken winged angel- · 24-09-2014, 02:39 PM

I hope you feel better! I'm sure everything will be okay. If you need me, message me. I'll be glad to help in any way that I can

secret squirrel · 24-09-2014, 02:42 PM

It's good that you asked for your cuts to be covered to prevent further damage - it shows a commitment to your recovery. Do you have anyone else to talk to until your psych returns? Well done on distracting yourself.

ennae · 25-09-2014, 10:24 AM

Thank you both. My brother is visiting for a week so that should help. I'm feeling better today which is good. I do hate when cuts get itchy as they are healing because that makes me more aware of them. I've decided to reduce my ADs for the holiday break because they make me so tired and then I tend to skip them for a couple of days so I don't just sleep all the time. It would be better if I just took less each day than skip days I think.

Lucy84 · 29-09-2014, 07:56 AM

Hope you are feeling a bit better.

It is hard when cuts itch etc as it does make you more aware of them. I am the same. My counsellor suggested trying elastic bands on my wrist to ping when I feel the urge to see if that helps. I use hair ties so that it is not as obvious and just ping them when I have a bad urge. It doesnt always help but it does sometimes and is better than cutting... might be worth trying it if your cuts are itchy to stop any scratching etc....

If you need to talk about anything PM me... xx

ennae · 29-09-2014, 10:10 AM

Thanks Lucy. I've been doing ok because my brother is visiting and I'm on holidays from work. Today I'm feeling a bit down but I really don't want to cut while my brother is here because if he found out he would be really angry and I don't want to hurt his feelings. Thank you for your support - it means a lot to me that other people care.