*Positive Recovery Post* - Bringing balance back

[mousetrousers]

Has been such a wild ride in my head this last week. Have been suicidal (thank God for blunt knives, gives you thinking time), huddled and rocking in a corner, absolutely furious at the world and my 'so called' care team, ashamed and guilty that I'm here at all - suffering with this ed while my family watches.
So glad I can now say positively I WANT TO GET BETTER! I have been given some definitive steps to take and I am, one day and one meal at a time, taking steps along my recovery road. I have had to face my control issues and the painful realisation that absolutely everything else in my life was in a huge mess because I couldn't even see it any more. The only thing I focused on was my ed. So, NO MORE! I have stopped counting and weighing everything that goes in. First step, but a massive one.

[maybeline]

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Originally Posted by mousetrousers

Has been such a wild ride in my head this last week. Have been suicidal (thank God for blunt knives, gives you thinking time), huddled and rocking in a corner, absolutely furious at the world and my 'so called' care team, ashamed and guilty that I'm here at all - suffering with this ed while my family watches.
So glad I can now say positively I WANT TO GET BETTER! I have been given some definitive steps to take and I am, one day and one meal at a time, taking steps along my recovery road. I have had to face my control issues and the painful realisation that absolutely everything else in my life was in a huge mess because I couldn't even see it any more. The only thing I focused on was my ed. So, NO MORE! I have stopped counting and weighing everything that goes in. First step, but a massive one.

Thats just pure awesomeness!, right there
You go girl all the best to you!

[marimar]

good luck :)) just keep going!!

[mousetrousers]

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Originally Posted by maybeline

Thats just pure awesomeness!, right there
You go girl all the best to you!

Thank you, you have no idea how you have helped me

[mousetrousers]

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Originally Posted by marimar

good luck :)) just keep going!!

Thanks! I intend to

[maybeline]

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Originally Posted by mousetrousers

Thank you, you have no idea how you have helped me

That means alot to me. It really does. Thank you. I am glad i could help you:) i wish you All the Best:)

[LittleCloud]

You're doing so well Hannah- stay strong and keep fighting for health. You deserve it <3

[mousetrousers]

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Originally Posted by LittleCloud

You're doing so well Hannah- stay strong and keep fighting for health. You deserve it <3

Thanks, I need to hear this today. It's health and life I'm fighting for, not a number

[LittleCloud]

You're doing so well Hannah- don't stop!