I've noticed my mood dip this week , No contact from SW for over 2 months , PDoc retired and only saw a locum who said I'd be seen in 6 months. I'm awful at initiating contact and I am tired.
I'm still not comfortable in my skin and the anasthetic's slowly wearing thin - Otep
Everyones lost but me! - Indiana Jones
It's okay , they know me here .
Kahlia1981 is my adopted little sister :)
''Courage doesn't always roar , sometimes courage is that little voice at the end of the day that says I'll try again tomorrow"
Hi guys sorry iv not been around
Liddy ur not fat Hun it's the disorder
Mark cud u write down exactly wat u want to say like word for word to receptionist b ur sw ur sw probs thinks no news is good news
So 3 deaths in 8 weeks don't know if I told u s my memory is **** one of my juniors at netball died this time last week of sudden death syndrome she was 17 still pretty messed up funeral is on Friday
Iv also reduced/ended my friendship with the girl I was telling u about that is attention seeking n making things up after Thursday night saying she had been raped but the night dhe said it happened we were on ane as I had gone for my own safety and was there from 6pm-3am so I had enough and ta her I wasn't having it anymore
The police have phoned today and said I need to give video evidence against my dad on 1st august
I'm still not sleeping apart from sat wen I took a small od of sum meds which make U sleepy
Anyhow I'm hear n ready support as I don't want u guys to feel ur on ur own
I hope the video evidence goes well for you. Be brave and as long as you tell the truth (no reason why you wouldn't) you will be fine. Its very hard for a guilty person to contest the truth. They get flustered and often contradict themselves.
I hope you start sleeping at night, it will make you feel much better.
I also had a friend who did similar things to your friend, it makes the relationship toxic and there is no real other option but to end the friendship.
Hows everyone else? x
GRANT ME THE SERENITY TO ACCEPT THE THINGS I CANNOT CHANGE
THE COURAGE TO CHANGE THE THINGS I CAN
AND THE WISDOM TO KNOW THE DIFFERENCE
Got a buzz on my intercom today , was a Dr O'brian , they had had my Lithium results back at 1.1 which is too high , was basically told to go to the surgery immediently and re-do them , also told to skip tonights dose which I'm apprehensive about.
I'm still not comfortable in my skin and the anasthetic's slowly wearing thin - Otep
Everyones lost but me! - Indiana Jones
It's okay , they know me here .
Kahlia1981 is my adopted little sister :)
''Courage doesn't always roar , sometimes courage is that little voice at the end of the day that says I'll try again tomorrow"
I'm on Lithium too and it is one of the few drugs that has had a marked positive effect on me so I would be wary of missing doses too. I'm on 1gram a night which is a high dose but still within my normal blood levels. Be careful Mark coz Lithium poisoning is not nice (had it twice) and can be fatal. Be brave and miss tonights dose *glomps*
GRANT ME THE SERENITY TO ACCEPT THE THINGS I CANNOT CHANGE
THE COURAGE TO CHANGE THE THINGS I CAN
AND THE WISDOM TO KNOW THE DIFFERENCE
No its not nice - Lithium as the years go by have a destructive effect on the body yet it helps the mind so much. They did tests on me and apparently its the Lithium that has stopped my thyroid working (which happens at the 10 year point-ish) then your kidneys start playing up (18ish year point) etc. I've now been on it for 13 years. But personally its worth it. Horses for courses. Some people hit lucky and don't get side effects.
GRANT ME THE SERENITY TO ACCEPT THE THINGS I CANNOT CHANGE
THE COURAGE TO CHANGE THE THINGS I CAN
AND THE WISDOM TO KNOW THE DIFFERENCE
*Hugs back and smiles*
A bit better, I had a relapse and had to go back to the hospital, but O feel better now, they tweaked my meds.
How have you been?
"My name is not Bipolar, it's..."
'women and girls are more likely to be misdiagnosed, with 42% of females diagnosed with a mental disorder instead of autism.'
Borderline personality disorder here <----- Was diagnosed when i was about 17 (25 now) . Never been heavily medicated though , drifted in and out of medication. Lifes a cruel mistress had a pretty traumatic up bringing which left a pretty me with some pretty unwanted memories.
Just finished a course of PT , been told funds are to low in my area of the UK for me to carry on using the service , so ive been kicked the curb with nothing more than the shirt on my back and the brain in my skull. Its almost as if everyone's waiting to lock me up or something because it would be cheaper to put me in a ward than keep having to fund the therapists so i can fix the long term problem.
My symptoms are:
Manic anxiety
Mild depression
Extremely angry
Dream into a dream world when things don't go my way
Imagine things that don't happen but feel real
Endless cycles of rage
Constant fear of dying in a slow painful way
And more but its depressing just listing everything , i have a fear of being outside on my own , but if im angry enough (Hulk mode) I can just about do anything within reason , IE walk to the shops or walk off into the woods.
Been a member of this site for years and only just come back for more support from others who are in a similar position to me. I challenge anyone with our issues to live a hour in the day of someone with BPD and see how far they get.
Anyone ever wants to talk im normally in chat or whatever.
thanks for the reply