thank you all, the pre op went ok, few awkward moments when she was asking why I am on an anti psychotic and then there was a question about any wounds on your body, so had to show her my leg and arm, but she said it was ok as they are scabbed over, but I can't have any fresh wounds before surgery, so that is going to be hard. plus a few other awkward moments, but overall ok.
my day is now getting so stressful, I have water coming up through my floor, on a ground floor flat and me and my mum are trying to get people to sort it, but they keep passing it to others, very annoying and stressful.
Cheryl good luck for wednesday, we are here for you, even if only over the internet, but still here for you.
how are you Mark and Liddy?
*hugs all*
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'When words fail, music speaks'
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no date yet for surgery, but normally it isn't long after a pre op, a few weeks I have been told is usual. I think I might put my tools somewhere out of sight, but that will terrify me, and then just force myself to keep myself distracted.
someone is going to ring me and then come round this evening, I am terrified, I hate, hate, hate random people coming to my flat, I am not exactly comfortable with my cc or support worker or the crisis team coming to my flat, but a random person terrifies me, so sat here trying to keep distracted.
could you maybe write down some bullet points or something to keep yourself on track. I am sure they will be understanding and realise how hard it will be for you. I think you are being really brave, you can get through it.
"Never be a spectator of unfairness or studpidity. The grave will supply plenty of time for silence." Christopher Hitchens
'When words fail, music speaks'
I am transsexual and homoromantic and proud to be.
Yeh I'm gona write it down tonight I don't want to miss any details but I'm scared it's going to cause more flashbacks and I don't know how to cope with them
I'm gona phone Lucy my sw tomorrow and cancel I can't do this
my old therapist told me things like, naming 5 objects you can see, touching 5 things, some people suggest smelling something with a strong smell, anything which will either keep you present or bring you back to the present.
"Never be a spectator of unfairness or studpidity. The grave will supply plenty of time for silence." Christopher Hitchens
'When words fail, music speaks'
I am transsexual and homoromantic and proud to be.
Cheryl please listen. You are over 18 and not a vulnerable adult. It is YOUR choice how much you disclose to the police. It is also your choice who you have in the room when talking to the police. You have far more control over this situation than you realise. If you don't want your mum there then request that. If you do want her there request that. That goes for anybody else too. Your not a child, you have choices, its just up to you to implement them and if you don't thats your choosing too. Im not being harsh, just blunt as its the only way I think I can get through to you.
GRANT ME THE SERENITY TO ACCEPT THE THINGS I CANNOT CHANGE
THE COURAGE TO CHANGE THE THINGS I CAN
AND THE WISDOM TO KNOW THE DIFFERENCE
Cheryl, I have a little childhood blankie I have to have to stay in the present, usually only when I try n sleep but it helps, do u have anything that reminds u of happy times ?
Oliver, I hope u can stay safe untill ur surgury. Would hate for them to push it back, is there anything on ur mind?
as for me, works getting realllyyyt annoying, bosses are real cool and let us get away with stuff but are becoming more strict as to kepp the companys contract in the warehouse. Keeping up prouction while firing people isn't easy but that's what their pushing, counting pallets and ***** is the worst especially when they dont consider the difficulty of the truck... Like it could take 1 hour to do a 50 pallet but the trucks super easy, only throw a couple cases and then u get 35 pallets that are on the floor and it takes 3 hours.. This jobs really is a good thong for me.. Helps keep my mind of my troubles and my messed up head but leaves me tired n needing sleep I can't get
hopefully I can sleep, without crying. Actuly did last night because my ex is talking to me agin, she was worried about me :)
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Just wanted to let everyone know that I will be going to see my fiancee in Algeria in the next few months and if I don't do that I will go to a long term care facility..
Which ever one comes first does, either way it will be awesome!
My ex, George who I am living with for only the next few days agreed with me that long term care would be a good thing after my recent... breakdown.. *ahem*
I just wanted to say -again!- I Love you all so very much, you mean so very much to me!
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Cheryl, will be thinking of you tomorrow (I hope I have the right day) *hugs* good luck.
Mason I am sorry work is so tough, I hope you can sleep tonight/last night, depending on the time where you are.
I actually got some sleep last night, but presumed I would as I had only had about 3 hours previously in about 40 hours.
the water leaking situation has been fixed, just have to wait for the water to dry out.
how is everyone?
"Never be a spectator of unfairness or studpidity. The grave will supply plenty of time for silence." Christopher Hitchens
'When words fail, music speaks'
I am transsexual and homoromantic and proud to be.
