Hi I'm sorry to ask this but u have been remembering stuff the last few weeks n having flashbacks n nightmares haven't been sleeping for 10 days I mean it's 12 hours in that time
Last night I disclosure sum stuff to the nurse bout my dad n my sw found out today n has said she has to phone the police has anyone ever experienced this
I haven't experience this, but I'm thinking of you now. This is exactly what I was afraid would happen years ago, which is why I kept my mouth shut. That was a mistake. It's good that you are trying to deal with things head on.
What has happened since? How are you doing? What flashbacks are you dealing with?
I know it's hard, but I promise it will get easier.
Oh, and sure, I still struggle with things, it's a process...but I have had a period where I had intense flashbacks for about 2 weeks or a month. I wasn't sleeping, whenever I managed to fall asleep I had nightmares...I had flashbacks during the day, and night, I wasn't eating much and couldn't hold down whatever I are...but it did end...it gets better, you just need to get it out.
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M struggling massively the only ppl iv spoken to is a support worker at the resource cafe n briefly to my Dbt worker as I was panicking
Flashbacks I'm getting there's a few
Dad raping mum n me not being able to stop it
Dad knocking mum unconscious on regular occasions
Mum nearly killing my dad
Him threatening to kill me if I phoned the police
Him strangeling me till I passed out
Him holding me by my kneck with a knife so my mum wudnt leave him
Him beating me black n blue for not doing his meds right
Finding him after n overdose n giving him CPR
Him moving his meds do it looked like he had took n overdose m wen I told ppl it looked like I was lying
Dad touching me n trying to penetrate me
I can't sleep cus I see him cuming to get me n the things above can't even do mindfulness cus all I see is him
when i was 15 i disclosed the abuse to my counsellor, and he rang the safeguarding team for where i live. then a couple of days later two policemen from the child protection team came to see me at school, i dont knwo how old you are, but if you have disclosed something then you will probably AT LEAST get a phone call from a safeguarding team or child/adult protection police teams.
Cheryl, nothing you did was your fault, 14 years old is a child and this was an adult who should have protected you from harm, no matter what you did or did not do.
I believe whatever happens will be at your discretion, but it is likely you will be contacted by the local safeguarding team, or police in case you wish to take it further, but also so that they can, if you do not wish to take it further at this point, record the information and make sure you have support.
It was my fault if I had just accepted he wasn't going to take me to training n I hadn't of told him I wished he was dead then he wudnt of kicked off n if I had just taken it like I was taught to then it wudnt if esculated into sexual
Everything has come flooding bk in the last 4 weeks so not really processes it or spoken to anyone apart from bob at the resource cafe he's been amazing
If Lucy asks me questions it will help me open up but I just can't blurt it all out not now she broke my trust n phoned the police
I can't contact neone for counselling until I finish Dbt it's a very strict rule but we will see wat my new cc thinks apparently she is trained in cbt
I know that it is hard and over the years has trained you to blame yourself for this but it is not your fault at all. He did those behaviors and treated you wrongly, no matter what about training before it wasn't right what he did and I'm really sorry you've been through that and are still facing the pain now.
I'm glad Bob has been supportive of you. I know it must have been hard when Lucy phoned the police but do you see why she did? I hope you can talk to her a bit to get the support you need.
Thank you
I know I'm being very borderline bout wat Lucy did
Iv got 7 hours till I see the police iv written it out it sounds silly n pathetic
I don't know wat to do
I understand that feeling. I reported assault about a month ago and I wanted to take it back too but please give it time, you might just be feeling overwhelmed. It's a long and draining process but it sounds like you did really well, I'm very very proud of you.
Keep your head up high and I hope you can do your best to try and stay safe x
