Contains sexual abuse - Guys help, going counselling

[Truth&OtherDisasters]

Please, anyone who has ever been to counseling for sexual abuse, any tips? I finally found english speaking place here, and it's free(which is good because I can't afford anything more). I wrote them whether they can counsel in English and they said yes fast, and then I asked for appointment, and it took them a while to respond. I had kind of given up on them responding...and I guess in a way that was comforting.
Now, they wrote and suggested appointment very soon, monday. And I have to say if I'm available to go. I suggested previously therapy face to face, because even though I have blogged and written here and in another forum...I haven't faced actual counselling in person or talking about it with anyone but friends...I have no clue what to say or do...
I feel extremely stupid...I know I would greatly benefit from doing it, but I'm really scared, I just feel weak....I'm afraid that:
a. I won't be able to think of nothing but the appointment all weekend
b. I will be too upset after the appointment to go about my day normally
c. I will be so nervous that when I get there I won't be able to say the real reason for me needing therapy...or to even go in...

I know that sounds over-dramatic but I'm extremely anxious around the whole recovery process and I have had exactly those reactions in the past in related situations and I have no clue how to avoid them. I was thinking may be to try working 2 x half day during the weekend and put monday down as resting day anyway, but ...but now my head is spinning and I'm wondering how to concentrate on work.
Any tips?

I'm afraid to even write them that I'm going on monday, because...because of the things I said already.

[Hidden in Shadows]

Well from my experience with sexual abuse conselling they only talk about the abuse when you are ready to talk about it. On the first appointment they may ask a few questions about the abuse that require non detailed answers. I hope that helps. Feel free to PM me.

[Snow White.]

If I'm overloaded with worries when I have to concentrate (ie. At work) I'll try and tell myself that I can worry at xx Oclock but now I have to work. Or writing down your worries before you begin work so you know they are there.

I've just recently started counseling and it has been amazing. I can'tdescribe how invaluable it has been through my recovery as there are many things I've been able to talk about and my counselor can tell me if it is normal or not.

It will depend on if you're ready but for me I have found it very useful. For things I am uncomfortable about I just say I'm not ready to say it and she understands.

If you're worried you won't be able to say the real reason you're there I suggest you write it down so you can refer to it if you need to. And maybe some reasons for why you want to go to prompt you to walk through those doors.

My batter is low so I have to go but happy to say more if you need.