My strange dreams of late

lostinthetwilight · 25-06-2014, 12:43 PM

I don't really know how to explain this so I will start off with I already know I have an insane imagination, and my dreams are like those of Alice in wonderland. However, the one thing about my dreams is there is always someone I either know, a little bit, know really well, or don't know at all. I am always following them through my wonderland, no dream is the same and lately they have been more and more nightmarish. I am sometimes afraid to go to sleep because every night I brace myself before I close my eyes. Yet still I fall down the rabbit hole. I feel like there is something missing though, and I am not sure if it is because I don't like my own reality so much so that I create my own. I also always wonder if the people I am dreaming of, dream of me too. It turns me upside down and makes it really hard for me to function when I wake up because sometimes I am still stuck in the dream. I didn't want to wake up from it so much so that it fogs my mind for the rest of the day... I feel like I am losing it, and I have lost friends just by sharing this with them, I don't want to lose anyone else in my life.

Isoverity · 25-06-2014, 01:58 PM

Dreams can suck you in. There are various levels of sleep that are hypnotic. The imagination has its dangerous aspects. People who use their imaginations a lot (like artists, fiction writers etc) are more prone to psychotic illness and are among the most suggestible for hypnotists. During waking hours you want to notice the times you are slippy away into your head. Just noticing that has a way of countering it. When you are driving around, and begin to get lost in thoughts, that's a hypnoidal state. People can drive for awhile and realize they weren't even paying attention. Yanking yourself out of thought and feeling during waking hours will help. Learning to be less reactive will also help. Poeple suppress a lot of emotions during the day and then they bubble up at night

lostinthetwilight · 25-06-2014, 06:03 PM

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Originally Posted by Isoverity

Dreams can suck you in. There are various levels of sleep that are hypnotic. The imagination has its dangerous aspects. People who use their imaginations a lot (like artists, fiction writers etc) are more prone to psychotic illness and are among the most suggestible for hypnotists. During waking hours you want to notice the times you are slippy away into your head. Just noticing that has a way of countering it. When you are driving around, and begin to get lost in thoughts, that's a hypnoidal state. People can drive for awhile and realize they weren't even paying attention. Yanking yourself out of thought and feeling during waking hours will help. Learning to be less reactive will also help. Poeple suppress a lot of emotions during the day and then they bubble up at night

I spend a lot of time drawing and writing stories. I can't seem to pull myself out of it because I can't stand anyone or any level of stress... I really think I am on the brink of a mental break. I am so much more happier in my dreams then when I am awake... I spend most of my time isolated because everyone judges and stares at me. I can feel their eyes and see them jerk their heads as they go by... I feel so much different then everyone else, and I just want to break free from this feeling of not belonging...

Isoverity · 26-06-2014, 03:53 PM

If you can't stand stress that's a sign you've been avoiding things because the more you avoid stresses the more sensitive you become to them. People probably aren't noticing you as much as you think. I knew a short guy who thought everyone was judging him because he was short. If someone bumped into him he would think it was because he was short. If a bartender wasn't running right over to serve him he would think it was because he was short. In reality nobody really cared.

You can fix up. You need to stop resenting people ("I can't stand anyone") because that's the root of what makes you more sensitive. Resentment is an emotion that opens the mind and pulls people down inside where they get fixated to things they feel and think. Negative emotions are the glue that hold many problems together. You can be ok. Don't worry about feeling you don't belong. Everyone has that but you've become fixated to it and it seems bigger than it should and is giving you morbid fixations.

Sylvia Plath Effect
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sylvia_Plath_effect

lostinthetwilight · 26-06-2014, 08:42 PM

How do you face your problems when they just run away on you? Whenever I have a problem the one thing I do least is try to avoid it. When I confront it, it always backfires. That's why I have such a hard time with dealing with what's wrong. I feel like I am doomed if I do and doomed if I don't. Being stuck between a rock in a hard place is usually where I find myself. When I was younger and I would get like this it got to be such a problem that when my night terrors started, anyone who would try to wake me got hurt. I am afraid what I would do if I was asleep and angry enough at someone... I have head-butted someone before and pushed them right out of my bed. When they had nothing to do with the way I was feeling.

Isoverity · 26-06-2014, 11:05 PM

What you write of is not unusual. When you confront things you are probably upset, angry etc. That is what makes things go bad because you don't know how to come from your center yet.

Most of the time we tend to "fight or flee" when we feel stressed by something or someone. But both reactions are horns on the same goat. We will feel guilty about both. If we hide we feel guilty. If we get upset and go off we feel guilty. Even doing the right things will "feel" wrong if we do things the wrong way.

Think of kids when parents divorce. The kids will often feel guilty - as if they caused the divorce. Of course they didn't cause it but it "feels" that way because they got upset/angry and that creates a guilt - which they then misinterpret.

If some random anon ran up to you in the street and started yelling at you saying you caused some problem for them you could feel guilty if you get upset even though you don't know the person.

The more a person fights or flees the more dehumanized they feel. Animals can live that way but people get a lot of conflict. The trick is to learn that your upsets aren't as normal as you think (that's true of all of us). We think its normal to get uspet but its actually very destructive. You can be strong and fight people - even hit them in the nose - as long as you're not doing it in an out of control, angry way.

When you feel stressed you can learn to watch it and let it pass. Just like a slapped hand will stop stinging - an upset will pass. You know not to keep slapping your hand but if you keep thinking about problems and getting upset - and then upset about the thoughts - and round and round - then its like you are keeping the upset going and going.

Watch the upsets and see they are wrong. Feel the stress on your solar plexus but don't run or fight out of overreaction. If its wise to confront someone or some issue then do it. If its not wise then don't do it. But act from what you realise wise in your center. You have strength there you don't know about. Your overreactions pull you from your center and lock you yo the environment outside where sick stresses and people try to make you react like an animal. That can't happen unless you play along.

When people want to throw you a hot potato don't catch it by overreacting. If you watch then without reacting they get burned instead of you. You don't have to "win" or beat a problem. You learn simply how not to lose (by getting upset) and by not losing you win anyway and you'll get better and better without struggling. Its all so easy its hard

Zurg · 27-06-2014, 11:47 AM

You should make your own religion, Jack.

Isoverity · 27-06-2014, 04:24 PM

Actually I steal most of my ideas from existing ones. But I would start one if I could get cool clothes and impressionable female assistants wearing Uggs and EDM rave jewelry!

lostinthetwilight · 27-06-2014, 05:24 PM

That makes a lot of sense, thanks for listening and thanks for the advice...

Isoverity · 27-06-2014, 11:40 PM

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Originally Posted by lostinthetwilight

That makes a lot of sense, thanks for listening and thanks for the advice...

You're closer to normal that you might think. In fact that might be the problem. When people lose awareness, and contact with their intuitive roots and impulses, they also lose a sense of conflict. It takes two hands to clap and two surfaces to cause friction. Aware people have more problems living from outer conditioning. Less aware people adapt and compensate for what they lose. If you were born into a cannibal tribe you would have more conflict eating people than the other cannibals. What would look abnormal to them would actually be more normal. Now you don't live in a cannibal culture but there are still a lot of unhealthy pressures in homes, schools, offices etc. A lot of the pressures are presented as normal when they can still mess up your contact with your true identity. So the fact you have some conflicts can be a positive sign. I can already tell you're more aware than the average bear