Graphic - Why am I here again?

[artsyashley]

** Also Contains abuse**


Lets say I never thought I would be here again. I started cutting when I was 11 and stopped at 22, Im 27 now. Now within the past month all I can do is think about cutting or self-harming. I am having anxiety attacks almost daily they can get so bad I pass out. I cut at least 2 times a day and mostly on my breasts or privates I think to punish myself for the sexual abuse I have been through in my life. Sometimes I dont even remember cutting myself which is something new. I had a follow up doctors appointment today with my primary care physician for my migraines and I let her know what I had been feeling/doing. She scheduled my with a psychiatrist and counselor but I myself feel I do not need to waste these peoples time since other people can be worse off than me.

sorry it has been a long time since I have posted so please let me know if I screwed it up

[Wonderland.]

You wouldn't be wasting anyones time at all.

Have you ever had counselling for the sexual abuse?

Well done for having 5 years free, count everyday free as a success.

I hope you manage to be honest to be honest with your GP.

Let us know how it goes?

[Crazy Cat Lady]

You're always, always welcome to post on RYL.

I'm so sorry to read things have been so difficult for you. Have you spoken to anyone about your past? You don't have to face anything alone. I know how scary it is to not remember when you've self harmed, and although I'm not a Doctor, this is pretty common when you've experienced trauma.

I really hope you manage to confide in your GP; they can help you and refer you to the appreciate services.

Try and take care of yourself, and remember: this wasn't your fault.

[Patent Pending]

Hi there,

I'm sorry to hear you've relapsed into self-harm; but well done for telling your doctor. You're not wasting anyone's time, you deserve support just as much as anyone else.

Have you ever gotten any professional help for the abuse you suffered?

Try not to feel too disheartened, you made it five years before, you can be back there again. All is not lost.

x x x

[artsyashley]

Thanks everyone, and I have not seen anyone for the sexual abuse. I was made by childrens service when I was little to go to at least 3 sessions and that is all that I did. Nothing was really discussed. Im just embarrassed that this is going on. I wish I could just not remember.

[kms23]

Hey, there's nothing to be embarrassed about.

It's good you've reached out on here,
I cab understand not wanting to remember, I felt like that for a ling time....I'm the same age as you...I had to have therapy, but I made it more than the mandatory sessions. It did help.

I would consider finding some professional support if you're feeling that bad.

Take care and stay strong

Xx

[LizzieRose]

You didn't screw up, hun. You just tripped on the way of life. We all trip literally or figuratively even if we don't admit it. :) It's happens. x